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The alarm clock screamed like a dying animal. Marcus slapped it silent without opening his eyes, rolled onto his stomach, and immediately noticed three things: his sheets felt strangely slick against bare skin, his pillow smelled faintly of coconut, and his left nipple was rubbing against the mattress in a way that made his breath catch.
Marcus jerked upright, then froze as unfamiliar weight shifted across his chest. His hands flew to his ribs, but they didn’t match the gut he knew. Softness filled his palms, warm and yielding, with peaked points that stiffened under his own touch. A choked noise escaped his throat.
Marcus's fingers fumbled along the wall, slick with sweat. Or was that just his skin now? A finger found the light switch, and he flinched at the sudden brightness. His reflection in the full-length mirror made him flinch harder still.
Marcus’s fingers, too slender now, too delicate, touched his face first. His reflection showed smooth skin where stubble should’ve been, full lips slightly parted in shock, and eyes that weren’t his own: wider, darker, framed by lashes that made blinking feel like a performance. He dragged his hands down his body, tracing the impossible dip of his waist, the flare of his hips, the way his stomach curved inward like an invitation. His legs, longer than they’d ever been, ended in feet that looked too small for the rest of him.
His phone buzzed on the nightstand, and Marcus grabbed for it, only to fumble, his grip all wrong. The screen lit up with notifications: missed calls from his ex-wife, frantic texts from his boss, a news alert declaring a “GLOBAL INCIDENT” in all caps. His thumbprint didn’t unlock it anymore. Marcus swallowed hard, and his throat moved differently now, the muscles working beneath skin that showed no trace of his forty-three years. He looked like someone’s fantasy of youth, poured into a form that made his own pulse throb in places he didn’t understand.
Marcus scrambled for the sweatshirt draped over his chair, his favorite, the one with the faded band logo he'd kept since college. The fabric slipped through his fingers twice before he managed to grip it, his new hands trembling as he yanked it toward his head. The moment the hem touched his hair, the sweatshirt simply stopped being there. There was just a faint scent of detergent and a tingling sensation across his scalp. Marcus instinctively let out a high pitched gasp, stumbling back against the dresser. His wide hip bumped the drawer handle, sending a sharp jolt through nerves that weren't there yesterday.
He tried jeans next, hopping on one foot to shove his hairless leg into the denim. The material constricted around his thigh, then turned translucent, melting away like ice on a summer day. Marcus's breath came in short bursts as he grabbed a pair of boxers from the laundry basket. They disintegrated before they even had the chance to touch his legs, scattering into glittering motes that settled on his bare toes. He swiped at his thighs as if brushing off invisible lint, but his skin remained stubbornly, irrevocably exposed. The morning chill raised goosebumps along arms that tapered into wrists too narrow for his watch to stay clasped.
Marcus hesitated at the top of the stairs, gripping the banister with fingers that felt too slight to bear his weight. The wood creaked beneath his bare feet that now tapered into delicate arches, the nails seemingly polished pink as if by some unseen hand. From below, the clatter of dishes and the hiss of the coffee machine signaled his son was already awake. His son. The thought sent a fresh wave of nausea through him. Was Noah affected by this too? The news alert did say it was global. Would Noah even recognize his father?
What would he say either way?
The first step down sent Marcus’s new center of gravity lurching forward. He caught himself, breasts swaying with the abrupt motion, and bit back a whimper. The sensation of moving in this body was like wearing someone else’s skin. It was too tight in some places, too loose in others, and every shift sending unfamiliar signals sparking along his nerves. By the time he reached the landing his thighs were trembling, and not just from the exertion.
Noah stood at the kitchen counter with his back to the stairs and shoulders hunched in a posture Marcus knew instantly, that same defensive slump he’d had since he was fourteen and the world had started expecting things from him. Only now, those shoulders were bare, smooth, and rounded with muscles beneath them shifting as Noah poured coffee into two mugs. His hair hadn’t gone below his ears the previous night, but now it spilled down his back in waves. Noah twitched as he turned at the sound of Marcus’s footsteps. The first mug hovered halfway to his lips, steam curling around slender, soft fingers. His eyes, the same brown as Marcus’s but now framed by thick lashes, flicked up and down Marcus’s body with an assessing neutrality that felt more jarring than any scream would have been. “Morning,” Noah said flatly. His voice was higher than yesterday but just as dry. “You look like my college roommate’s Instagram feed now.”
Noah took another sip of coffee, his throat flexing as he swallowed beneath skin that no longer bore the faint shadow of stubble. "Relax, Dad," he said, setting the mug down with a clink. "You're doing that thing where your eyebrows try to climb off your face." He gestured vaguely toward Marcus's reflection in the microwave door, a stranger's wide-eyed panic framed by tousled waves of auburn hair. "At least you got the good genes in this freakshow. You could be my sister now. Maybe you could be my hot aunt, if you start smoking menthols."
Marcus opened his mouth, finding it was smaller than it should be, his lips catching on teeth in unfamiliar places, but Noah was already shrugging past him toward the living room, the sway of his hips making the hem of an invisible shirt ride up in Marcus's imagination. The TV blared to life with the manic cadence of a news anchor mid-breakdown. "...confirmed reports from every country except North Korea," the woman gasped, her normally coiffed hair frizzing at the edges of the screen. "As of 6:17 AM Eastern Standard Time, biological males of all ages have undergone what scientists are calling a 'spontaneous morphological reassignment'-"
The news anchor's voice cracked as the camera cut to a live feed of Times Square, a sea of naked, feminine bodies moving with the jerky panic of drowning insects. "Authorities advise staying indoors," she continued, "though initial attempts to distribute emergency clothing have proven... ineffective."
The broadcast cut to a National Guardsman tossing a bundle of fatigues toward a transformed soldier, the fabric evaporating mid-air in a puff of golden dust. Marcus's fingers dug into the cheap countertop, his blunt nails leaving marks in the laminate.
The news anchor’s manicured fingers trembled as she adjusted her earpiece. "Our correspondents have been able to confirm that several…” The anchor paused for just a second, but it was long enough to catch the hint of a sneer. “... Transgender men remain unaffected by this phenomenon," she continued, her voice pitching higher on the last word. The screen split to show a crowded emergency room where a lone figure sat shirtless on a gurney, his chest flat beneath a crosshatch of surgical scars. He was the only person in the room who looked like he belonged in Marcus's familiar world, broad shoulders, coarse arm hair, the shadow of a beard, but even he couldn't wear pants. The man kept tugging at the hem of an imaginary shirt, his knuckles white.
The broadcast hastily cut again, this time to a shaky social media video from a zoo. A silverback gorilla sat on the concrete floor of his enclosure, his once-massive shoulders now sloping into feminine curves, his knuckles dragging across unfamiliar breasts as he (she?) sniffed at the air with a delicately upturned nose. The caption read "BERLIN ZOO: 12:53 PM LOCAL TIME." A peacock strutted in the background, his iridescent tail feathers shimmering... but his proud fan was gone, replaced by the sleek plumage of a peahen. The gorilla made a sound that wasn't quite a whimper, pressing her hands between her thighs as if trying to hold something in.
The screen cut again, this time to a TikTok video of a high school classroom where a dozen girls sat rigid at their desks, except they weren't girls. Not originally. A senior Marcus recognized that Noah used to be a volunteer soccer coach for kept crossing and uncrossing his legs, his smooth thighs sticking together with each nervous shift. His ponytail, bright pink elastics holding back hair that had been a buzz cut yesterday, swung as he turned to whisper to the transformed student beside him. Their lips brushed accidentally, and both recoiled with identical flushes.
Marcus's hand twitched toward the remote, but Noah was already flipping through channels with jerky, unfamiliar motions, his thumb slipping off the buttons twice before landing on a panel of experts mid-debate. A sociologist with cascading black curls and no lab coat was gesticulating wildly towards a pie chart labeled "Workforce Disruptions." "-over seventy percent of construction crews failed to report today," she said, her voice cracking. "And that's just the legal labor. Imagine the cartels right now." The broadcast helpfully cut to a helicopter shot of stalled cargo ships clogging the Suez Canal, their decks crawling with nude figures ineffectually clutching clipboards to their chests like makeshift modesty panels.
The other scientist on the broadcast Zoom call tried to adjust her glasses, before remembering they'd dissolved against her temples two hours ago. Dr. Eleanor Park had been one of the world's leading endocrinologists yesterday. Today, her TED Talk about the effects of spironolactone was playing on mute in the corner of the split screen while she sat bare-shouldered behind a desk that looked far too large for her compacted frame. Her hands, formerly capable of dissecting cadavers without tremors, now fluttered like startled birds as she gestured to a holographic projection of DNA strands.
"This isn't a mutation," Park said, her voice steadier than her fingers. The hologram zoomed in on a chromosome pair, XX, glowing blue, that unraveled like yarn to reveal microscopic symbols etched along the helix. "It's editing. Precise, intentional edits written directly into every Y chromosome's telomeres." The camera caught her grimace as she crossed her legs, then uncrossed them immediately when the movement sent an unexpected jolt through unfamiliar nerves. "Whoever did this left signatures. Mathematical puns in base pairs. Inside jokes in novel peptide sequences."
"Put plainly," Dr. Park said, pressing her palms flat against the desk as if anchoring herself to her last shred of professionalism, "I’m at a loss for how, but this was done by someone, with intent." The holographic double helix twisted into an outline of a middle finger before dissolving into pixels. Marcus snorted despite himself, the sound coming out all wrong, a delicate exhale through a nose that felt too small. Noah shot him a look from the couch where he sat with his legs tucked under him, knees pressing together in a way that looked incredibly uncomfortable but probably felt necessary.
The sociologist scowled at the empty space where her lab coat's pocket should be, then gestured sharply at the floating data stream. "Clothing," she muttered, "is an emergent property of human society." The broadcaster played a clip of a timeline from a documentary showing loincloths morphing into Victorian corsets morphing into athleisure wear. "But what we're seeing now is a fundamental rewrite of our relationship with fabric at a quantum level."
Dr. Park’s holographic display flickered as she rebooted the projector. The 3D model zoomed in on a segment of rewritten DNA, the base pairs rearranged into something that looked like a biology textbook after it had been vandalized by a high schooler with no respect for the class. "A cure is theoretically possible," she said, her voice dropping into the clinical calm she’d used to deliver terminal diagnoses before today. "But whoever did this did more than edit our genetic code. It's been... locked." The hologram pulsed red around the edges, strands of DNA knitting themselves into an intricate knot. "Think of it like a zip file with a password longer than the universe."
The cable box’s built-in clock blinked 8:17 AM in garish green digits, a mundane counterpoint to the apocalypse unfolding onscreen. Marcus’s gaze kept snagging on Noah’s reflection in the blackened glass: the way his son’s - daughter’s, now? The way his child’s collarbones cast shadows where muscle used to be, how his throat moved differently when swallowing coffee. That casual slump on the couch was pure Noah, but the body wearing it belonged to a stranger.
Noah stretched his arms, thin, smooth, dotted with beauty marks Marcus didn't remember being there, and yawned with a pitch that made the dog next door start barking.
"We should pick out new names," he said matter-of-factly, flicking a strand of dark hair out of his eyes with a wrist movement too graceful to be his. "Unless you want me calling you 'Dad' while you look like someone's DeviantArt OC."
Marcus opened his mouth, then shut it when his new vocal cords produced a sound most comparable to a flute being stepped on. He cleared his throat, an oddly dainty noise now, and tried again. "You’ve gotta be kidding."
Noah rolled his eyes. The gesture looked different now, more exaggerated with the flutter of dark lashes that looked as if he’d put mascara on them, even though there was no way he could have. "Dead serious," he said, gesturing at his own body with the coffee mug. "This isn't some Freaky Friday shit. Were you paying attention to that DNA knot?" His thumb tapped against the ceramic, nails clicking in a rhythm Marcus had heard her drum against textbooks since grade school. "That's a 'fuck you forever' knot. The sooner we can accept this, the better off we’ll be."
The microwave's hum filled the silence between them, a sound Marcus had heard a thousand mornings before, but never while staring at his son's bare breasts rising and falling beneath the living room’s fluorescent lights. Noah scratched absently at his collarbone, fingers pausing mid-motion as if realizing for the first time how much space his nails now covered.
Noah set his coffee mug down slowly, the ceramic clicking against the countertop like a punctuation mark. "Noelle," she said, testing the shape of it between teeth that had become perfectly straight overnight. "With an 'e' at the end. Like the holiday, but make it fashion." Her lips, fuller now, pink without product, pulled into something that wasn't quite a smile. "Pronouns she-slash-her. Try it."
Marcus (no, he had to pick a name now, didn’t he?) pressed his palms flat against the countertop, grounding himself in the cool laminate. "Mara," she blurted, the word slipping out before she could second-guess it. It was the first name that came to mind. Some half-remembered high school sweetheart, maybe, or the protagonist of a paperback she'd skimmed in a waiting room once.
The microwave shut off abruptly, plunging the kitchen into silence except for the distant murmur of panicked news anchors playing on a low volume in the other room. Noelle tilted her head, her dark hair sliding over one shoulder like ink spilling. "Mara," she repeated, rolling the name around her tongue as if tasting it. "Sounds like a femme fatale from a noir film. It suits you." She smirked, but her fingers were tight around the mug handle, knuckles pressing white against skin that Marcus had never seen this pale before.
Noelle lifted the coffee mug to her lips again, her pinky finger arching in a way Mara had never seen Noah do. “Seriously, Mara,” she said, emphasizing the name with a theatrical flourish, “you’re basically my sister now. Or, like, my weirdly hot aunt who shows up to family reunions with a new tattoo and a shady boyfriend.” She snorted, then immediately winced as the sound came out higher than intended. “Jesus Christ, even my laugh sounds like a sorority girl’s.”
Mara's blush crept up her neck like a fire, pooling in the hollow of her throat where Noah's - no - Noelle's, eyes kept snagging. "Sister?" Her voice cracked on the word, hands fluttering to cover breasts that suddenly felt heavier. Noelle and Marcus had an especially strong relationship as adults, especially after Noah had gone to bat for her in the divorce proceedings.
Noelle rolled her eyes. “Yeah, just look at you. Neither of us could be a day over twenty-five.” The math was undeniable, her reflection showed smooth skin where crow's feet used to be, lips plump without the years of nervous biting. The slight yellowing on her bottom lip left over the smoking she’d picked up to cope with the stress from her divorce before Noah had gotten her to kick the habit was gone too.
And yet, acknowledging it meant admitting the young woman snickering was, based on appearances, both about her age and also clearly an immediate relative.
Noelle's grin showed teeth that had never needed braces. "Age twenty-four," she said, tapping her temple with a finger that no longer bore calluses from lacrosse matches. "That’s your reality now." She stretched, arching her back in a way that made her new breasts lift obscenely, and Mara had to look away before her traitorous body reacted. The kitchen tiles were fascinating suddenly, their grout lines meticulously straight.
The refrigerator chose that moment to shudder violently, its compressor groaning before falling silent. Mara's skin prickled with sudden awareness, not just of the cold air seeping from the unsealed fridge door, but of every molecule of air brushing against her exposed skin. She realized, with dawning horror, that she could feel the texture of the kitchen tiles through her bare feet. Noelle's coffee mug hovered near her lips, steam curling around fingers that looked like they'd never lifted anything heavier than a champagne flute. "So," she drawled in a parody of a Southern accent, dragging out the conjunction until it curled like smoke, "when are we calling our mom?"
Mara's hands, smaller now, paler, flinched against the countertop. The divorce papers had been finalized three years ago, ink dried on a separation that felt like cauterizing a wound. "Christ, Noelle," she muttered. Even her swearing sounded different now. Softer, like it was being filtered through silk.
Noelle shrugged, the motion making her dark hair slip over one shoulder in a way that looked practiced. "I’m just saying." She tapped her nails against the mug, a staccato rhythm Mara recognized from years of restless teenage fidgeting. "You spent twenty years married to a woman who wanted to be Donna Reed. Now you’re Donna Reed." Her grin widened. "Minus the apron. Because, you know." She gestured vaguely at their mutually enforced nudity. "Fabric is fascist now, I guess."
Mara's fingers hovered over the phone screen. Her new nails looked like a stranger had polished them in the night, clicking against the glass like a stranger's. "Fine," she muttered, watching the reflection of her unfamiliar lips form the word. "But if you’re serious about this, we need a story." The challenge settled between them like a third presence, prickling against skin that still didn't feel like her own.
Noelle's grin flashed, just a little too bright, a touch too practiced, as she slid onto the kitchen stool with a grace Mara had yet to master. Her thighs stuck to the vinyl seat with a peeling sound that made them both wince. "We're half-sisters," she declared, twisting a strand of dark hair around fingers that had once been scarred from skateboard falls. "Different moms, obviously. You got Dad’s first love, some chick from when our parents were both young and dumb in college, and I got..." Her nose wrinkled, an expression that looked eerily similar to Noah's childhood disgust at vegetables. "Ugh, I guess I’m stuck with still being Lisa’s."
The phone rang once before Lisa picked up, her exhale crackling through the speaker like static. "Marcus?" The name landed like a stone between them. Mara stifled a sound that wasn't quite a whimper. Noelle’s phone slipped in her damp palm. Too small to hold things the way Marcus would have. Mara tightened her grip.
"Lisa?" Her voice came out wrong, higher than intended, laced with a tremble that had nothing to do with the April morning’s chill. Noelle perched on the countertop beside her, her bare thighs pressing against the laminate, her smirk faltering when Mara hesitated. The silence stretched thin between them, vibrating with the unsaid. Mara watched Noelle’s reflection in the microwave door, the way her daughter’s (daughter’s?) new lips pressed together, waiting.
Lisa’s sharp inhale crackled through the phone speaker. Mara could practically see her ex-wife’s fingers tightening around her own phone. Lisa’s left hand, always, because Lisa had broken her right thumb in elementary school and it ached in cold weather.
"No," Mara blurted out. She couldn’t decide how it felt. Insane? Liberating? Both? Mara rolled her shoulders back, a movement that sent unfamiliar weight shifting across her chest, and pitched her voice lower, smoother. "It's Mara. Marcus's..." Her pulse hammered against ribs that felt too delicate to contain it. "Marcus’s oldest daughter."
Lisa's silence stretched so long that Mara wondered if the call had dropped. Then came the slow exhale, half disbelief, half resignation, that Lisa had reserved for tax audits and telemarketers when they were happily married. "Bullshit," she declared. The word clipped. "If there was some long-lost bastard child, it would have come out in the divorce." A pause. The rustle of fabric (did Lisa still have clothes, Mara wondered, or was she sitting on a couch?) as she shifted the phone. "Unless this is some Witness Protection nonsense. Did you finally piss off the wrong attorney at that ridiculous job I seem to recall having encouraged you not to take?"
Noelle snatched the phone from Mara’s trembling fingers, her seemingly manicured nails flashing a pinkish color in the morning light. "My half sister just got out of a cult," she announced with unexpected confidence, swinging her bare legs off the counter with an unnatural fluidity for how long she would have had to practice. "The kind where they burn your birth certificate and give you a new identity woven from hemp and bad decisions." She paused, tilting her head as if listening to something beyond the phone but not waiting for Lisa to respond. "Yes, Mother, that’s why you’ve never met her. No, the restraining order wasn’t either of our ideas, though honestly, your pot roast is a war crime."
Lisa’s choked cough through the speaker sounded suspiciously like swallowed laughter. Noelle winked at Mara, a gesture that looked more at home than it should on her new face, before continuing. "Look, Mom, the point is-" She paused, fingers tightening around the phone as Lisa’s voice came through, tinny and sharp. Noelle’s smile faltered for half a second before she forced it back on. "No, I’m not high. Yes, now I do look like-" She stopped, blinking down at her own bare thighs. "You know what? New topic."
Noelle’s fingers curled around the phone as Lisa’s voice sharpened, a sound Mara recognized from a thousand marital arguments, now filtered through last-generation speakers. "Put Marcus on," Lisa demanded. The microwave clock ticked to 8:33, its soft glow highlighting the sweat beading between Noelle’s breasts.
Noelle pressed the phone harder against the table, too hard, and winced at the feedback squeal. "Mom, listen-" Her voice cracked, slipping into a register that made her jump. The refrigerator hummed back to life with a shudder, its sudden vibration making Mara's bare thighs flinch against the counter's edge. The phone slipped from Noelle's grip, clattering onto the counter with Lisa's tinny voice still spilling accusations. Mara caught it, her reflexes sharper now, fingers darting like a pianist's, and pressed it to her ear just as Lisa hissed, "What the hell is happening with you two?"
The lie spilled from Noelle's lips before Mara could interrupt. "Dad's missing," she blurted, fingers tightening around the phone's edge. "Woke up and his bed was empty, wallet still on the nightstand." She paused, letting the implication hang, just long enough for Lisa's sharp inhale to crackle through the speaker. "I called Mara over to help me look."
Lisa's silence lasted three full microwave beeps, long enough for Mara to notice how the refrigerator's hum now resonated differently in her smaller ribcage. "I call bullshit," Lisa finally said, but the claim was missing Lisa’s usual edge. The line caught the click of her swallowing. "Marcus wouldn't-" A pause. Fabric rustled on her end, the unmistakable sound of someone clutching a blanket tighter, before a barely audible curse word indicating it had disintegrated just as coverings were for everyone else. "Is his car still there?"
Noelle's eyes flicked to the driveway where Marcus's pickup sat gleaming under the morning sun, its familiar dents and scratches unchanged. "Gone," she lied without missing a beat, twirling a strand of dark hair around fingers that had once been grease-stained from changing oil. "Unless he stole my Civic, which would be embarrassing for everyone."
Lisa’s exhale crackled through the speaker like static on a dying radio. "Put this new girl on." It was not a request, but her voice was fraying at the edges. Noelle hesitated just long enough for Mara to see the pulse fluttering in Noelle’s throat before she passed Mara the phone with fingers that trembled slightly.
The phone pressed against Mara's ear felt like a live wire. She could hear Lisa's measured breathing, the same controlled rhythm she'd used when in labor, during the arbitrated meetings with the divorce lawyer, for all the tribulations of their shared life.
Lisa gave a barely perceptible gasp, a sound Mara knew meant she was counting silently to three, the way she always used to before dropping bombshells. "You sound like him," she whispered. The accusation hung between them, vibrating with decades of shared tells. Mara's pulse hammered against the phone's edge, her new fingers remembering the weight of Lisa's wedding ring sliding off for the last time.
The refrigerator shuddered again, a dying beast’s last gasp, and Mara realized the buzzing in her chest wasn’t just from the appliance. She was vibrating with a cocktail of adrenaline and something else, raw and electric beneath her new skin. She pressed the phone harder against her ear, as if physical pressure could compress a lie into something believable to both of them. The phone slipped slightly in Mara’s slicked palm as Lisa’s silence stretched into something taut and dangerous. She could hear the faint creak of her ex-wife’s kitchen chair through the line, the sound of someone leaning forward with elbows braced against a table that had once held their shared coffee mugs.
The tears came easier than Mara expected. Hot, silent things sliding down cheeks that she could swear were more rounded and less fuzzy than she could ever remember them being, even as a small child. She let herself weep without wiping her tears away, her breath hitching in a way that felt practiced even though she'd never cried like this before. "I should've checked on him last night," she whispered into the phone, pressing her free hand flat against the countertop to keep it from trembling. The lie tasted like metal on her tongue, sharp and corrosive. "He texted me something weird about the stars looking wrong, and I just-" Her voice cracked, and this time it wasn't performative. Somewhere beneath the layers of new bodies and lies, Marcus was fading away.
Lisa's silence on the other end had weight to it now. The heavy, humid weight that you can feel before a storm. When she finally spoke, her voice had lost its knife-edge precision. "What time?" The question came out rough, like she'd been swallowing glass. "When did he text you?" Mara's breath caught, half-acted, half-real, as she remembered the last text Lisa had sent Marcus before the divorce. They had had their good times and their bad, but telling Marcus she wanted to separate over text was a cheap move. She brought the real feelings into a new context. "One… one seventeen in the morning," she whispered, watching Noelle's eyebrows lift in silent approval. The lie took shape between them like a phantom limb. "He said it looked as if the constellations were rearranging themselves. That Orion's belt was-" Her voice broke right on cue. "-unbuckling."
The click of Lisa’s tongue came through the speaker, a wet, ragged sound Mara hadn't heard since she’d had that car accident in 2009. The refrigerator's compressor kicked back on with a whine that drowned out whatever Lisa muttered next, but Mara didn't need to hear it. The quiet devastation in her exhale said everything: Lisa believed them.
The dial tone buzzed against Mara’s ear. She lowered the phone slowly, the plastic casing warm from the heat of her palm, her new palm, with its delicate creases and unblemished skin. Noelle plucked it from her grip with fingers that still moved like Noah’s: quick, impatient, all knuckles and restless energy in spite of their manicured appearance. "Well," she said, tossing the phone onto the counter where it skidded to a stop against a cereal box, "that went better than expected."
Noelle's grin was too white, too perfect, like a shark who'd learned to use Crest Whitestrips. "We've got this," she announced, rolling her shoulders in a motion that made her breasts jiggle in a way Mara didn’t want to think about. Mara averted her gaze as soon as Noelle's smirk deepened. "Relax, sis. Mom's halfway to filing a missing persons report by now." She hopped off the counter, her bare feet smacking against linoleum with a sound that Mara couldn’t decide whether was delicate or indelicate.
The cereal box toppled when Noelle’s hip brushed against it, sending Froot Loops scattering across the countertop. Mara stared at the pops of color against the off-white laminate before dragging her gaze up to meet Noelle’s. “We told her I’m missing,” Mara whispered, pressing her palms flat against the countertop. Her fingertips left faint condensation trails where sweat had pooled. “What the hell happens when she calls the cops?”
Noelle’s soft, slender fingers drummed against the counter’s edge with a rhythm Mara recognized from Noah’s childhood fidgeting. “Relax,” Noelle said, her smile not quite reaching her eyes. “The police are going to have their hands full for days. And unless they’re doing some kind of genetic testing, there’s no way they’ll connect you to-” she gestured vaguely at her own body, “- all this.”
Mara's fingers trailed down her own stomach. It was uncharacteristically smooth, devoid of the coarse hair and faint stretch marks that had mapped four and a half decades of living. The absence felt surreal, like touching a mannequin crafted from warm clay. She pinched her skin experimentally, half-expecting it to peel away and reveal her old self beneath, but all she got was a sharp sting and the slow bloom of pink across porcelain-perfect skin.
Her gaze flicked to Noelle, who was perched on the kitchen island swinging her legs like a child. But no child had thighs that plush, that unblemished, that designed. The morning light caught the golden down along Noelle's calves, highlighting contours that shouldn't exist on a former lacrosse player. Mara's throat tightened at the way Noelle's toes curled against the cabinet door. It was dainty, almost coquettish, as if her body had absorbed muscle memory Noah never possessed.
Noelle's bare feet made wet suction sounds against the linoleum as she padded to the fridge, a sound Mara had never heard when Noah wore socks. The refrigerator door swung open with a groan, revealing shelves packed with beer and leftover pizza that suddenly seemed grotesquely masculine in this new reality. Noelle's nose wrinkled, an expression that looked foreign on her softer features, as she grabbed a lone yogurt cup with fingers that still moved with Noah's impatient energy.
Mara watched Noelle peel back the lid with her teeth, a habit that used to make Lisa scold Noah about germs, and realized with widening eyes that she could smell the strawberry scent from across the room. Her new senses prickled like antennae tuning into frequencies Marcus had never noticed. The sweet fermentation mingled with the faint scent of their unfamiliar bodies, the stale coffee grounds, the faint metallic tang of the open fridge. All these microscopic intrusions her old self had filtered out were at the forefront of her attention, whether she wanted it or not.
The yogurt lid tore between Noelle's teeth. She swallowed, her throat moving in a way that drew Mara's gaze to the unfamiliar hollows of her collarbones. "So," Noelle said, licking pink-streaked lips with a tongue that looked too delicate for the words forming behind it, "did Mom leave any of her toys behind? Or did she take all the good vibrators in the divorce?"
Mara's face burned hotter than the ancient refrigerator's compressor, a sensation so visceral she could feel the flush spreading down her newly sensitive neck. "Christ, Noelle," she muttered, turning to hide her face so sharply her unfamiliar hair whipped against her bare shoulders. Noelle rolled her eyes, an exaggerated motion that made her dark lashes flutter. "Oh please," she said, hopping off the counter with a fluidity that still looked unnatural on Noah's body. "Like you weren't just staring at my tits two minutes ago." She spread her legs provocatively, planting her bare feet wide on the linoleum. The morning light bathed every detail in pornographic hyperreality.
"See? There’s nothing left to hide. Might as well get comfortable in our skin."
Mara's eyes darted away too late, she'd already seen everything. The cognitive dissonance hit like a punch: that smooth, hairless expanse belonged to her son. Her traitorous body responded anyway, warmth pooling low in her belly. She clenched her fists, nails biting into unfamiliar soft palms.
The words tumbled out before Mara could stop them. "I don't want to know about the masturbation habits of my sister!"
The kitchen went silent except for the refrigerator's dying wheeze. Noelle froze mid-bite, yogurt spoon hovering near lips that suddenly looked unnaturally glossy under the fluorescent lights.
Mara's heart skipped a beat. Sister. The word hung between them like a spider on a lone thread, swaying with the weight of everything unsaid. She hadn't meant it, she hadn't even thought it, yet the Freudian slip had woven the idea into something disquietingly natural. The realization prickled across her skin like static.
The refrigerator's hum stuttered into silence. Noelle's spoon clattered against the table. It was too loud in the sudden quiet, her fingers recoiling as if she'd been shocked. Mara watched the pink yogurt quiver on the spoon's edge, transfixed by how the tremor mirrored her own heartbeat beneath ribs that looked as if they’d been tightened by a corset.
"You are getting into this," Noelle murmured, her remark lacking its usual edge. She set her breakfast down carefully, as if handling something fragile, then wiped her fingers against her thigh, a gesture that still carried Noah's careless masculinity despite the delicate wrist rotation. The pink streaks smeared across flawless skin looked like makeup.
Noelle tapped the yogurt spoon against her teeth, a habit Noah had picked up in middle school that now looked concerningly flirtatious with her new lips. "So," she repeated, dragging the word out like taffy, "any toys in the house? Preferably battery-operated?" The spoon clattered into the sink with a metallic ping that echoed off the walls.
Mara's fingers tapped against the counter's edge, her blunt, unpainted nails pressing white crescents into the laminate. "There might be..." The words slithered out of her, sticky with reluctance. She cleared her throat, acutely aware of how her transformed vocal cords fluttered. "Maybe in Lisa's old nightstand. The locked drawer."
The tension could be cut with a knife, yogurt dripping down Noelle's bare thigh. She didn't seem to notice, her pupils had dilated, swallowing the hazel of her new eyes whole. "You're kidding," she breathed, but the hitch in her voice betrayed hope. The refrigerator chose that moment to stop completely, its final shudder sending an echo through the silent kitchen.
The drawer’s lock shattered with a sound like a champagne cork popping, Noelle’s manicured fingers had found Lisa’s emergency hammer, the one that used to live under the kitchen sink for cracking stubborn pistachios. Mara flinched as wood splintered inward, the violence of it sending a tremor through her bones.
Noelle’s phone screen flickered to life with a close-up of pink nails digging into sheets - had she already found the time to update it? Noelle had queued a video so fast Mara barely caught the URL before her daughter’s thumb swiped it away. A breathy moan filled the kitchen, the actress’s voice pitched high enough to make Mara’s skin prickle. Noelle didn’t even blush; she just adjusted her stance on the kitchen chair, spreading her thighs once more with a casualness that made Mara’s stomach flip.
"See how she’s holding it?" Noelle murmured, eyes fixed on the screen where the actress circled a neon purple vibrator with practiced ease. Her own fingers, still moving as if they had Noah’s callouses despite their softness, mimicked the motion awkwardly at first, then with mounting confidence. The cheap plastic vibrator buzzed to life, its sound drowned out by the video’s escalating gasps. Mara couldn’t look away from the way Noelle’s wrist arched. The gesture was too graceful, too knowing for someone who’d gone to bed male.
The actress onscreen threw her head back, her spray-on tanned breasts bouncing, but Mara found her gaze unwillingly locked on Noelle instead. Her daughter’s lips, full and glossed from licking them nervously moments ago, parted around a shaky inhale. Noelle’s free hand skated up her own stomach, fingers splaying over ribs that no longer belonged to a sportsman. When she arched into her own touch, the morning light caught the sweat beading between her breasts, making her skin look like something luminous and alien.
Noelle's back arched sharply, a motion that probably would've snapped Noah's spine but flowed effortlessly for Noelle. The vibrator slipped from her fingers, clattering onto the kitchen tile as her thighs clenched around nothing. A sound escaped her lips, half gasp, half laugh, that was nothing like the porn actress's practiced moans. Mara watched frozen as Noelle's toes curled against the chair legs, her entire body shuddering through waves that seemed to surprise even her.
Pornhub’s video player cut to a shampoo commercial, blissfully without audio, as Noelle slumped forward, elbows propped on spread knees. Her breath came in short, damp bursts that stirred the hair stuck to her forehead. "Well," she panted, grinning up at Mara with pupils still blown wide, "that's... different." She reached for the fallen vibrator, then stilled. The plastic gleamed under the kitchen lights, wet in ways Mara refused to think about.
Noelle passed the vibrator between her fingers like she was doing a coin trick. It was still slick with wetness, still buzzing faintly, and extended it toward Mara with a grin that was equal parts teasing and challenging. "Your turn, Mara," she purred, emphasizing the name with a flick of her wrist that made the toy bob obscenely in the air. The morning light caught every glossy curve of it, highlighting the places where Noelle's own wetness clung in transparent strings.
Mara's blush burned hotter than her new skin could handle. She crossed her arms over her chest, a useless gesture that only made her more aware of how her forearms pressed against unfamiliar softness. "Absolutely not," she managed, but her voice cracked halfway through, pitching upward in a way that made Noelle grin.
The vibrator clattered onto the kitchen table, spinning in lazy circles like a needle from a compass that was starting to give out. Noelle stretched, her spine popping audibly, and rolled her shoulders with more satisfaction than a person waking up in her situation probably should. "Your loss," she remarked, plucking a stray piece of cereal from her cleavage and flicking it at Mara. It bounced off her shoulder, leaving a tiny damp spot that evaporated almost instantly in the morning heat.
The television's glow painted shifting patterns across Noelle's bare shoulders as she stretched again, longer this time, her spine arching like a bowstring being drawn taut. Somewhere behind them, the news anchor's voice droned on with the crisp detachment of someone reading a eulogy for normality. "...unverified reports of multiple world leaders receiving a letter taking responsibility for the mass feminization signed by someone calling themselves 'Moonbeam'," the anchor said, the name catching Mara’s attention. "No further-"
The television screen zoomed in on a close-up of the handwritten letter. Its loopy, feminine script fluctuated with abandon between professional responsibility and a giddiness at how everyone had received the news prior to the letter being written. Noelle's laughter bubbled up unexpectedly, her shoulders shaking as she traced the exaggerated curls of the signature with a sticky yogurt-coated finger. "Fucking Moonbeam," she wheezed, wiping tears from eyes that still crinkled at the corners like Noah's used to. "Whoever she is, bet she's got a PhD in witchcraft and a Pinterest board called 'Gender Apocalypse Mood'."
The commercial break blared to life with an unearned enthusiasm, a jingle for tampons sung by animated daisies. Noelle snorted into her yogurt, sending pink droplets splattering across the counter. "Oh god," she wheezed, wiping her chin with the back of her hand, "we are so underprepared for this." Her gaze slid sideways to Mara, lingering on her bare face and untouched skin. "First things first, makeup. And proper toys." She waggled the still-damp vibrator before letting it plop onto the table with a wet smack.
Mara watched Noelle lick her fingers with exaggerated relish, her tongue swirling around each digit in a way that made Mara's stomach twist. "You're enjoying this," Mara said quietly. It wasn't quite an accusation, more like testing the weight of a suspicion she couldn't ignore anymore. "Aren't you?"
Noelle froze mid-lick, her pink tongue darting back into her mouth with a swiftness that could have been guilt. "Enjoying?" She rolled the word around like a marble in her mouth that Mara knew from their years living together meant she had to actually think about her response. "I'm adapting. There's a difference."
The spilled yogurt had made its way to Noelle's bottom lip, pink against pink, and Mara caught herself staring at the way her daughter's tongue darted out to lick it away with practiced ease. Noelle saw her looking and smirked, slowly dragging the tip of her tongue along her upper lip this time, slow enough to make Mara's stomach clench. "See something you like?" she teased, popping the spoon back into her mouth with a wink that was all Noah despite the new eyelashes fluttering around it.
Mara wasn’t sure what her face was conveying in that moment but it was enough to make Noelle’s smile momentarily fade before she leaned forward, resting her elbows on the counter with a fluidity that still looked alien. "Relax," she drawled, flicking a strand of hair behind her ear with fingers that were beginning to move like they'd always been this delicate. "I'm just fuckin’ with you." But the way her gaze lingered on Mara's mouth belied the casual tone. Mara swallowed hard, her throat working beneath skin that felt thin, exposed. "Even if I'm not your father anymore," she said slowly, "I'm still family." The idea tasted strange. No longer a parent, definitely not a sibling, but two close people in a state of change. "So cut the-" She gestured vaguely at Noelle's sprawled limbs, the deliberate arch of her back. "-whatever this is."
Noelle held up her hands in mock surrender, fingers splayed like a magician caught mid-trick. "Fine, fine," she said, rolling her eyes with exaggerated drama. But Mara caught the flicker of something intense in her sister’s - no, that can’t be right, daughter’s - gaze before Noelle turned away to rinse the yogurt spoon. The water ran pink for a moment before swirling down the drain.
Noelle snatched the car keys from the hook with her teeth, an old habit from lacrosse practice that looked oddly sexual now, and wiggled her fingers in a mock salute. "Be back before you miss me," she called over her shoulder, her bare feet smacking against the porch steps. The screen door banged shut behind her with a sound that still made Mara flinch after fifteen years. Mara watched through the kitchen window as Noelle vaulted into the driver's seat. She had no pants, no shoes, just the effortless grace of someone who seemed to have no qualms about showing their face publicly in their birthday suit. The car roared to life, blasting Lil Nas X through open windows as Noelle peeled out of the driveway with the same reckless enthusiasm Noah had always driven with. Some things didn't change, even in circumstances this bizarre.