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My breath is heavy, my head and limbs are aching from the fighting and small wounds. Blood is running down my forehead. I can’t do this so much longer. I think, before the enemy suddenly changes her attack and cuts deep into my hand with her sword. My own weapon falls to the ground, I clutch my hand to my chest in pain. “Fuck!” I prepare to use spinjitzu to get away before she gets the chance to strike again. I really could need a pause.
Then there’s a sharp excruciating pain in my back, no, in my whole body, I can’t move anymore. The enemy before me lowers her sword and moves on without a look back. What happened? She didn't do anything. I feel the pain slowly fading from my fingers and toes, no, the feeling in my limbs is disappearing completely. My legs can't hold me up anymore and suddenly the ground is so close, my hands and knees are touching the wet concrete but I can’t feel it. Why can’t I feel it? The ground is full of rubles, it should hurt.
I can’t breathe anymore, my lungs aren’t taking up any air, my vision blurs in the edges, black dots dancing in my vision. I cough out blood, it streams from my mouth down my chin. The sounds from the fights are so far away. My body is so weak, I look down to see that my once green ji suddenly painted a dark red right over my chest. They stabbed me right through my back and out my chest. I'm dying now, no trick, no coming back, this is the end.
After everything I have survived, dad, the overlord, Morro, is this the way I'm gonna die? This time the first spinjitzu master won't let me return, I can feel it, my body is too broken. I will be gone forever. This will hurt my friend so much, the guilt inside me is stocking up my throat, tears running down my face, I don't want to go, my friends don’t deserve that pain again.
My head is just a dark hole now and I hear nothing, I can’t make sense of anything anymore, just the feeling of guilt, even though it’s also fading away. I don’t feel my body. The light is changing, my eyes aren't looking at the ground anymore. My vision is almost gone now but I can tell someone is holding me and my eyes are landing for the last time on those familiar brown eyes. “Kai” I breathe out, it’s nice to be in his arms again, just like when I was a little kid, my brother. Then the next moment Kai is gone, everything is gone. There is nothing left of the world and I drift off into the dark void of nothingness. I have often imagined myself dying, especially during the time I’m sad or after a great battle who messes up all of us, like the times when you feel no victory, just the pain of being through something so horrible. The peace I now feel is nothing I could have ever imagined. The first spinjitzu master is waiting for me now and I have to go.
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“LLOYD!!!” I scream. I see the enemy impaling him with their sword meters from me. I can’t do anything, I'm incapable of helping or stopping them. I should stop them, I’m supposed to protect him, I am supposed to…
I strike down the enemy I’m fighting with a blast of fire, it's stronger than I intended but I don't have time to think, my mind is only focused on Lloyd.
He's on the ground now, I put my arms around his fragile body and hold him close to me, careful to not hurt him more. I can see the blood on his ji, on the ground, in his face, it’s dipping from his mouth, so much blood. Tears are flowing down my face. I’m screaming Lloyds name and his eyes are turning to me. He lets out faint sounds which almost sounds like my name but I can't hear properly, all the sounds are buzzing in my ears. His eyes go dim as all the life in him disappears. I’m screaming again and shaking him, I don’t care if it hurts him, he just has to wake up.
How can this happen? Lloyd, my friend, my little brother, he can’t be gone? It can’t be, he can’t be, he can't…
Nya is beside me now, she’s also crying but tells me to move, “We can’t stay here.” her voice shaking, I can see she’s trying to hold herself together, not to break down into a useless pile of sadness like me. The radio in my ear sparkles and Nya’s telling the other to retreat. We cannot defeat them, not now.
I pick up Lloyd, his body is lifeless and his limbs getting bent in weird positions until Nya helps to put them right and we start running, his eyes are still open but I can tell they're not seeing anything, the shine of life has left them. There is nothing left of my little brother inside this body. The tears are still running down my face and dripping onto Lloyds, mixing with his blood. This shouldn't have happened, I was supposed to protect him, I told him that I always would protect him.