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Yeosang POV~
When I decided that I wanted to be an idol and got accepted by BigHit, I only had one purpose: to train hard, accumulate and improve my skills, and eventually make my debut. Never in a million years would I have imagined getting one of the best friendships I had in my life there. When I first got introduced to the other trainees, Wooyoung was one of the very few people who approached me first as I looked a little cold and arrogant but that was because I wasn't there to make friends I was there to make my debut but no matter how many times I brushed him off or dismissed his loud remarks he still kept coming to me and asking me to be his friend ultimately I subconsciously became used to have him around me if there would be a day where he would be busy to come and annoy me, I would unconsciously look around for him. Eventually, I warmed up to him, and I noticed that our friendship was peculiar due to having completely different personalities but it was very well-balanced. He was the loud, extrovert, and playful one while I was the funny quiet, and introverted one, so unlike personalities yet we counterbalanced each other very well. When one day he made a promise to me that we must debut together or fail together, only then I realized how much he meant to me. After that promise, he became my safe place, a friend whom I could tell my mistakes without worrying that he'd judge me for it, a brother who I was certain would stick together with me till the very end.
When I decided to leave BigHit, I was devastated to lose such a friendship as I had with Wooyoung but when he showed up at KQ audition day, to say I was shocked would be an understatement, he left a very big chance to debut with one of the best companies in South Korea to keep our promise to debut together. I may hadn't shown it at that time but I was deeply touched by his act. When I knew we were debuting together I was over the moon, finally, our dream was coming true.
"Sangie, wake up," A high-pitched voice with no mistake Wooyoung's said before I felt a soft hand shaking me.
I groaned before turning to the other side and shoving my head back into my fluffy and soft pillow.
"Come on, Yeosang wake up" He whined before yawning. a few seconds later, I felt the bed behind me dropping before a pair of hands was wrapped around my waist and a head was pressed against my back.
"Fine, 10 more minutes but if we got scolded it's your fault" he whispered before relaxing his body completely. His body heat was so soothing so I moved backward so that my back was attached to his chest before letting out a content sigh and closing my eyes.
A few minutes later I felt a hand playing with my hair, when I opened my eyes I saw Hongjoong sitting beside me running his figures through my hair. I felt a movement behind me seconds before the arms around my waist disappeared. I whined quietly missing the heat before I heard a giggle and the arms were back around me again.
"You were supposed to wake him up, Woo. not sleeping and cuddling him, Now you both would need to rush so we won't be late for our photo shoot" Hongjoong scolded Wooyoung softly.
"Come on Hyung, An extra 15 minutes won't hurt beside you said we have a photo shoot so we should get our beauty sleep so we won't look tired for the shoot" replied Wooyoung with no doubt a teasing smile on his face.
"It's okay Hyung, I'm up now, I took a shower yesterday before going to bed so I can skip it and just change into some decent clothes and grab something light to eat then I'll be good to go," I said, slowly removing Wooyoung's arms from around me before sitting uptight and going to the bathroom to brush my teeth and face. They just gave me a nod before leaving but not without Hongjoong ruffling my hair and reminding me to hurry and Wooyoung leaving a kiss on my cheek before sprinting out of the room laughing and giggling to himself. I felt a smile creeping up on my face before chuckling and then disappearing into the bathroom.
I did my morning routine and brushed my teeth then got out and headed toward the closet. we were having a photo shoot so we were allowed to wear comfy clothes as we would change out of them when we reached our shooting location. I picked something easy and light for dancing practice later which were white pants and a navy blue shirt, I made sure to take a jacket with me in case we came back late and the air was chilly at night. I brushed my hair flat down before taking my phone and wallet and then heading towards the living room where everyone was except for Hongjoong who was in the kitchen. When I arrived there, the sight in front of me was enough to have me rolling on the ground laughing til crying. Wooyoung was trapping a screaming Jongho between his body and the end of the coach while trying to kiss his cheek.
"Hyungs, Please save me from this kissing monster" Jongho groaned trying his best to turn around but to no avail.
"Come on, Maknae. Just one kiss and I'll let you go, Promise" Wooyoung said with an innocent smile taking one hand off the couch and putting it between them showing his index finger. Taking advantage of the position, Jongho pushed Wooyoung before running to the chair beside Mingi who was startled by the sudden presence beside him as he had his headphones on but not even 10 seconds later, he handed one to the younger.
Wooyoung pouted but before he could say anything, Hongjoong returned to the living room with his phone pressed to his ear.
"Manager-Hyung is downstairs, Is everyone ready to go?" He asked reaching for his bag and trying to put on his shoes while trying to hold his phone still with his shoulder which he was failing miserably at.
All of us replied with a quiet 'yeah' before moving to the door front to put on our shoes. when we all made sure we had everything we needed, we headed to the elevator leaving Hongjoong who was still on the phone, and Seonghwa who was making sure our door was locked well. The ride was very short as a few seconds later the doors opened revealing our manager next to the familiar black van.
"Where's Seonghwa-Yah and Hongjoong-ah ?" He asked once he noticed we were only six.
"Hongjoong Hyung is taking a call and Seonghwa Hyung is making sure our door is locked properly" Yunho replied.
"Alright, you can get inside till they come," Manager-Hyung said opening the van door. Mingi climbed into the van first followed by the rest of us. I never liked getting squeezed between two people so I took the window seat in the second row Before being joined by Wooyoung beside me and San at the end who started talking about a new series he started to watch. It wasn't long before we were joined by our eldest members and we were set to go.
Along the way Wooyoung and San joined by Yunho kept chatting about the new drama, I tried to join the conversation now and then but they paid me no mind so I just sat back against my seat and stared out of the window. 15 minutes later I got bored and turned to my side. Yunho was sleeping against the window and only San and Wooyoung were talking now. I tried to gain Wooyoung attention by trailing my fingers on his hand but he just brushed it off and continued talking to San without even turning to me. I tried again but this time I grabbed his elbow again, he slipped his arm out of my grab and continued talking without even turning to me once. I felt my chest tighten for a moment before it was gone but the horrible feeling was still there. Wooyoung has never brushed me off like that before unless he was joking and he would apologize 5 minutes later but this time he didn't turn around or even acknowledge me, Maybe he finally realized how different we were and decided he didn't want to be my friend anymore. the thought left a very sour taste in my mouth but accepting the truth is better than living in a lie. Normally I would never think about something like that but 2 days ago I read something about our friendship and how it completely doesn't make sense how are we even friends and maybe, just maybe they were right. My thoughts got cut off by the sound of the van's door being opened. I didn't even notice we arrived but before I could go back inside my head, I forced myself to move and stop thinking about it. The location we arrived at was in an open field filled with many different flowers and long trees, if we weren't here for a shooting I would relax here for a few hours.
"Alright everyone, We will start with solo shots then group shots, Hongjoong-ssi and Yeosang-ssi will go first then Wooyoung-ssi and Seonghwa-ssi then Yunho-SSI and San-ssi, and finally Mingi-ssi and Jongho-ssi." The director said once we all gathered in front of him.
We all gave a sign of approval before we were rushed to a room to change into. My outfit was Blue pants and a sleeveless white top along with white boots with flowers printed on them. When I finished getting dressed I was dragged by a stylist-Nonna for my make which wasn't much. They went along with a simple but elegant look for all of us. When I was finished I moved to sit on the couch that was located on the farther side of the room before taking out my phone and scrolling through Twitter.
" Are you okay Yeosang-ah? " A voice asked before a body was placed beside me.
When I lifted my head to look at the person, I saw Seonghwa with a worried look on his face.
"I'm fine, Hyung," I said shortly before looking back at my phone.
"You are quiet" He stated before taking my phone from my hand and gently pulling me into a hug as best as he could with our position.
I sighed trying to get away from the hug but he tightened his arms around me so I relaxed my body and returned his hug. he didn't say anything but just continued to hold me and pat my hair.
"The stylist Nonna is gonna scold us" I murmured yet made no move to pull out of the hug.
"It's okay, If she scolded you, I'll tell her it was me"
"Deal" I replied with a small smile on my face.
"Not to interrupt this but the director is asking for Yeosang" Yunho's voice snapped me back to reality.
I slowly pulled away from Seonghwa who immediately started to check my hair for any misplaced hairs. When he found none he let me go with a satisfied smile on his face. When I got to the set the director was checking Yunho's picture with an approving look on his face.
"Alright Yeosang-ssi, I need you just to relax and smile brightly, Just calm and relaxed vibe, " The director said.
I nodded before making my way to my assigned place, I tried to relax and think about my happy memories with my family and members. It did work but I couldn't help but let my mind drift to Wooyoung and how he ignored me in the van and almost instantly the happy thoughts vanished and got replaced by something grey.
"Are you okay, Yeosang-ssi? You look distracted, Would you like a break?" the director's voice snapped me back to reality. I shook my head to clear it before replying with a quiet 'I'm fine'.
20 minutes later, My shooting was over and I was instructed to call Hongjoong for his turn. It didn't take me long to find our leader who was looking at his phone sitting on a chair beside Wooyoung.
"Hyung, Director-nim is asking for you, " I said once I reached their side.
Hongjoong gave me a simple nod before standing up and heading toward the set. I was about to turn back to go somewhere else but before I could I felt a hand wrapped around my wrist pulling me down to sit on the chair that Hongjoong was sitting on.
When I finally sat, the hand on my wrist disappeared and I was faced with concerned-looking Wooyoung.
"Are you okay, Sangie? You look a little lost" He asked putting his hand on my knee.
Wordlessly I just moved my leg before standing up and left ignoring the hurt look that flashed on Wooyoung's face. I can't talk to him without thinking that he is just pretending to be my friend or all his caring act is just fake. I found the couch that I sat on before I was called and sat in the farthest place I could before putting my head on the side and closing my eyes for a short nap till we were called for the group shoot.
Wooyoung POV~
Photo shoots have always been one of my favorite things to do. I would just need to pose and be handsome and that's it. I also always liked watching my members being praised about how good and handsome they are, It always gives me a sense of pride whenever a director who we haven't worked with before complements any of us. When the director called for Mingi to start, I sat on a chair that gave me a good view of the set. One by one, They would pose and smile and get compliments until it was Yeosang's turn. I noticed he had a very weird look on his face before it went away and he started to smile. Before I could think more about it, Hongjoong dragged a chair before stopping next to me and sitting down beside me.
"Hyung, does Sangie look weird to you?" I asked after a few silent minutes.
"Weird how?" He replied without looking up from his phone.
"Like distant and sad. Sure, he's smiling but his eyes are sad" I replied watching How Yeosang was changing his pose to a more carefree one.
"I noticed but I saw Seonghwa talking to him earlier so I didn't want to make him feel that he needed to tell us so I let him come to me if he wanted to"
I nodded but before I could ask any more questions, I saw Yeosang coming toward us. He stopped in front of us, his body facing Hongjoong like he was avoiding looking at me.
"Hyung, Director-nim is asking for you, " He said quietly looking ready to bolt out any moment.
When Hongjoong got up and left, I caught his wrist before he moved away and gently tucked him down to sit. at first, he hesitated but after a few seconds, he gave up and sat down. I let go of his wrist and put my hand on his knee and gave him a hopefully pressured squiz.
"Are you okay, Sangie? You look a little lost" I asked.
He didn't reply just moved his let away and got up and left which made me frown. he never avoided me like this. Even when I tease him more than usual, he would tell me to stop but never act like this. I tried to think if I did something that might have upset him or said something bad to him but I came out empty-handed. We were fine till this morning when I woke him up, So it must have been something during the ride here. I tried to think what I could have done but I didn't find any reason for him to be sad. I spent the whole ride talking with San and Yunho, he looked tired so I decided to not tease him or annoy him with my chatter so he could rest for a while. I felt him touching me and even grabbed my elbow one time but I thought he was playing around like he always does so I didn't pay it any mind figuring that he would go to sleep after a few minutes.
"What's up with the frown?" A voice said startling me from the head.
When I looked up, Jongho was standing there holding a juice bottle in one hand and his phone in the other. He Had a concerned look in his eyes that he tried to hide by looking at his phone but he walked and sat beside me without saying anything else.
"I think I made Yeosang mad. He's ignoring me" I said after a few silent seconds.
"Why do you think so? Did you do something that could make him mad?"
"I don't know, We were fine this morning but then he started to act weird when we reached here, " I said staring at the floor like it held the answer.
"Why don't you try to talk to him? Maybe it's just a stupid misunderstanding that needs to be solved with a few clarifications" He said.
"You are right. Our wise Maknae" I said pinching his cheek.
"He's napping on the couch beside the door. We're having our group shoot soon so he needs to wake up anyway" He said pushing my hand away but I could see a small smile on his lips.
I stood up and started to talk towards the door, it didn't take me long to find Yeosang with his eyes closed and head resting on the arm of the couch. I thought about waking him up by shaking him but decided against it and sat beside him. I started to play with his hair a bit before whispering to him so I wouldn't startle him.
"Hey Sangie, Time to get up"
He groaned a bit but still sat up and stretched his arms. When he finally looked at me, He quickly looked the other way and shifted away for a bit. He opened his mouth to say something but decided against it and shut his mouth. I was about to ask him about it but I was cut off by the director telling us to come for the group shoot. Yeosang didn't waste any more time jumping from the couch and walking toward the set. I sighed before getting up and joining the others so we could get over with it. Thankfully the shoot didn't take long, we kept smiling and laughing together so it was more of a bonding time together than a photo shoot. I tried my best to approach Yeosang by smiling at him or even holding his hand but every time I tried he would either turn around or slip his hand away from mine which made me sad and frustrated. I wrecked my mind to try to find what I said so badly or rudely to the point where he would completely ignore me. By the time we were done and in our normal clothes, it was already 5 PM which means that dance practice would be likely 3, or 4 hours, unlike our 6-7 hours of normal practice.
"Alright, Everyone ready to go?" Manager Hyung asked as he led us toward the parked van. Yeosang was the first one to go in so before anyone came inside, I ran forward a bit pushed Yunho slightly to the side, and got inside. I noticed Yeosang sitting in the very back so I walked to the end before sitting next to him. He looked tense for a second before he looked out and rested his head on the window. He looked really tired so I decided to not talk to him now.
It didn't take long to reach our company building and before I knew we were standing in the middle of the dance studio and ready to dance for the next 3 hours. During the practice, my eyes kept darting toward Yeosang who is now looking slightly less sad. Still, as a result, I kept stumbling and missing a few beats which I'm sure the rest didn't appreciate very much as by now we all wanted to go home, have a warm dinner, and just fall asleep. When the first break came, Hongjoong came to me and asked if I was okay which I replied with a quick 'I'm fine' before taking a sip of my water and relaxing against the wall. When we were called to get ready again, I had to take Yeosang out of my mind so we could finish fast and flawlessly. Before I knew it 3 hours passed and we were preparing to leave. on the way to the dorm, I kept practicing what I was gonna say to Yeosang when we went home. When we finally reached our home, We all got out of the van and said goodnight to our manager before making our way upstairs. Once we were inside, we all started doing our own things, Mingi and Seoghwa went to shower first, and Hongjoong, Yunho, and San sat in the living room waiting for their turn to shower. Yeosang who has been quiet since we finished our photo shoot just went to his room. I debated whether to go to him now but changed my mind and thought it would be better to talk after taking a shower. By the time we were all clean and warm, it was already 9 PM. Seonghwa wanted to cook today so that left me doing nothing in the living room. A random drama was playing on the TV which no one paid any mind. When I looked around I noticed Yeosang was missing.
"Hey, Where is Yeosang?" I asked.
"Yeosang-ah is in his room" Hongjoong answered without looking in my direction.
"Thanks, Hyung, " I said getting up and heading toward Yeosang's room.
When I reached the door I took a deep breath before knocking lightly. When I heard a faint 'Come in' I took another deep breath before opening the door and going inside. Yeosang's side was clean and tidy as always. He was lying on the bed watching something on his phone. I didn't waste any more time as I sat on his bed before laying beside him and trapping him in a bone-crushing back hug.
"W-Wooyoung? " He stuttered a bit.
"Yeah, It's me" I replied before tucking my face into his neck. I felt him tense slightly and his breath quickened a bit but I kept hugging him tightly.
"I'm sorry" I whispered.
"What are you sorry for? You did nothing wrong"
" No, I did. I may not know what but I do know that I did something that got you mad at me" I replied stubbornly.
"No, you didn't. I'm just being stupid"
"You are not stupid" I scolded him gently.
"No, I am." he insisted.
"How about that? You tell me what's wrong and I'll tell you if you're being stupid or not even though I'm pretty sure you are not" I said trying to get him to talk to me.
"Am I your friend?" He asked quietly that almost didn't hear him.
"What are you talking about? You are my best friend practically my brother" I replied not knowing what is he talking about,
"Really?"
"Yes, really. What's going on?" I asked getting worried for real now. He mumbled something under his breath that I couldn't catch so I sat up and turned him around gently before laying back down so we were face to face.
"Can you say that again? I didn't quite catch what you said"
"You ignored me," He said louder this time.
"When?" I asked trying to remember if I ignored him but I couldn't find an occasion where.
"On the van, I held your elbow but you just slipped your arm out, I brushed my fingers against your hand but you didn't even spare me a glance" He replied in one breath.
"oh, Sangie. I didn't mean to, I promise. I just thought you were playing around beside you looked tired so I thought you would just fall asleep after a few minutes so I didn't want to tease you or talk to you so you'd have enough time to sleep," I replied feeling the guilt slowly settle in my stomach. I really did ignore him, Even if I didn't know that he was serious, I still ignored him.
"I shouldn't have done that, even if you were just playing around I shouldn't have ignored you like that and I'm very sorry and guilty about it. I understand if you don't accept my apology now but I hope you will accept it later" I said when he didn't speak.
I sat up and was walking towards the door when a hand came holding my hand. When I looked back at Yeosang, he was looking at the bed but I could clearly see the tears on his cheeks. I panicked for a second before walking back and wrapping him in my arms. he continued to cry for a few minutes till he was just silently hugging me
. "I-I'm sorry Woo." He said after some silent time.
"What for?"
"For doubting you. for doubting almost 9 years of friendship all because of my mind and that comment," He said backing away a little so he could see me.
"What comment?" I asked. It was an unofficial rule to every idol that reading comments is off limits cause there's no way that every single comment there is positive.
"Just a comment on Twitter saying that you're just pretending to be my friend and your true friend San as you always stick with him and you even got a matching tattoo. I know it's not true but I couldn't help my mind but overthink and think that that comment is real and-"
"Hey, hey, breath Sangie." I interrupted him. He took a deep breath but kept silent. "That comment is not real. Yes, San is my friend and yes we got a matching tattoo but you, Yeosang my best friend of 9 years. No one not even San can replace that. You are my safe place and the person I can share with my secrets knowing you won't tease me or mock me" I said looking into his eyes so he could see my honesty.
"I'm sorry for ignoring you, It just hurt me to look at you without remembering that comment, and my thoughts weren't helping, " He said wiping his tears with his sweater's sleeve.
"It's okay, I forgive you even though you did nothing wrong, If I didn't ignore you, you wouldn't have been overthinking anything. So either way I'm not gonna ignore you again whether you're playing around or serious " I said before cupping his cheeks and kissing his forehead which made him giggle a bit.
"I forgive you. It was a stupid misunderstanding that if we had talked about it from the beginning none of the past 4 hours would have happened" He said with a small chuckle. I laughed a bit before lying down but not before pulling him with me. Once he was lying down I attacked him with kisses on his cheeks and forehead while his adorable laughter filled the room.
"Yeosang-ah, Wooyoung-ah, Dinner is ready" Seonghwa's voice brought us back to reality. we were talking and laughing and we didn't notice that a whole hour had passed.
"We're coming, Hyung" I shouted before getting up and pulling Yeosang with me before making our way to the kitchen. During dinner, I kept my hand firmly on Yeosang's hand, we got teased about it but I still kept holding his hand. When we finished dinner, I pulled Yeosang with me to my bed before falling asleep cuddling him But before I went to sleep I made a promise with myself to never ever let Yeosang feel slightly insecure about our friendship.