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The door creaked behind the bed and each step of the person was resonating in the room.
“Hey?” He called.
“Im switching on the lights.” He said and the steps moved away towards the other wall.

The room lit in a minute and the person who was pretending to be asleep groaned.
“You sleeping,Big?” Ken asked smiling and Big just shifted in the bed.
“Come on now, time to eat.” He said and now Big slowly opened his eyes.
He could see Ken taking his clothes from the shelf and moving to take off his clothes.
“Here I bought yours too” he said placing the parcel in the table.
“They allowed?” Big asked more like muttered.
They usually won’t. That’s how everything worked here in this mansion.
“I begged. Sneaked” Ken winked before before going inside the shower.

Ken is the only person Big can call his favorite. Ken is usually seen as a cold person but deep he is just like Big. And that’s why they hit each other. Big and Ken has been friends for like…last 4 years.

Big was saved by Khun Kinn’s bodyguards in the street when he was 19, beaten up into pulp and waiting for the moneylender to just kill him.
Since the day he saw Kinn his whole life changed, they saved him that day.
Not from death but also from his old life. He experienced everything he knew never existed. He only started living then.
He was assigned as the bodyguards after 2 months and was again assigned as the Khun Kinn’s head bodyguards after 2 weeks.
Big’s whole world was just Kinn and Kinn and only Kinn.
He basically lived for Kinn, woke up for kinn, was even ready to kill for kinn, die for Kinn.
He was Kinn’s bodyguards for like past..10 years till Porsche came in the frame.

Big slowly got up the bed and moved his lazy legs towards his table where the noodles, a box of chicken and a water was placed. He could hear the water flowing in the shower and Ken’s low humming.
“U sure u sneaked those from down kitchen?” Big shouted to Ken and the shower flowing stopped.
“I didn’t say from Kitchen.”
“Then?”
“I was assigned with P’Chan outside today and I bought it for you”
“He allowed?” Big asked opening his box of noodle and preparing the fork.
“Yes. It’s for his fav kid right?” ken said coming down the shower, slowly drying his hair with the towel.
“I am not his favorite. I am nobodies” He said as he took a big mouth of the noodle.
“Well you are mine” Ken said stopping for a min to wink.
Big just laughed at that and continued eating, watching Ken stumble around the room for almost an hour and finally when he settled down with Big on the table, he was near finished noodle and has moved to his chicken.
“What did u do today?” Ken asked.
It was the first time in his 10 years career that he had taken a leave. No reasons just he felt like taking one.
“Slept”
And Ken just nodded.
“What about the thing I told u about?”
“What?” Big asked looking up from his plate.
“About..Third?”
Yeah. P’Third, Ken’s friend from America and when Big went with Ken during their vacation to a bar they actually met this Third.
He is nice, cool, and can say is kinda sexy.
And Big and Third talked almost all the night and it was after they returned Ken asked if he could give his number to third and that Third is interested in him.
They have been bugging him for months now..
“I don’t know. We don’t match Ken.”
“You don’t? Who told u that? How do you know?”
“We have talked okay”
“Yes. You both talked till morning. And how do you know he is not right for u when you haven’t given him a chance yet”
And Big just stayed silent, slowly moving his eyes through the plate.
“You can’t Big. Not anymore. You have to move on from Khun Kinn”
“Stop it Ken” Big said standing up.
“How long are u going to wait? Till u die?”
“I said stop” Big said moving away with his plates and dropping them in the sink to wash.
“They are in love,Big. You have to too.” Ken said sighing and Big remained silent.

On the day when they saved Big, it was not only giving him a chance to live but a reason to live.
A reason to love someone and be someone’s.
The moment he saw Kinn even when Kinn didn’t, he knew he had to give that man everything.
And he looked at Kinn everytime he went out and in the mansion. Things suddenly took his turn when he became the head bodyguard for Kinn.
He was ready to beat someone for Kinn, kill someone for kinn.
He never confessed his feelings to Kinn but he knows Kinn knows.
Anyway who is he really? He is or was just a low class teenager who was in dept trap waiting for someone to kill him while Kinn was someone the whole family looked up to. Their heir. Their leader.
Big waited everyday, every hour, every minute for Kinn to just look at him.
It was his heart breaking deeper and deeper whenever Kinn called him in the middle of night to drop off his boytoys.
Soon Kinn got into a relationship with Tawan, it is a bad thing or a good thing it didn’t end well.

Big couldn’t sleep or eat whenever Kinn went out for mission, his body would be palpitating whenever Kinn comes home late. His blood boiling whenever he sees Kinn injured.
He knows he can’t be near Kinn but there is a desire..to be in his side forever…
And then one day stirring everything..suddenly Porsche appeared.
He came out of nowhere and immediately became what he worked for his last 10 years, turning those years into mist.

Big couldn’t contain his anger when he got assigned with khun Kim and when Porsche took his place with Kinn. It was Ken who calmed him down and well he can do nothing against it.
And when Porsche got drugged it was all along him and Kinn falling him love while Big just stood there like a fool..waiting for a second for Kinn to just look at him, look at his eyes and feel..

Big knows he and Ken are the biggest assholes in the mansion and they admit it shamelessly. They have done pretty bad things to Porsche just for Big’s jealousy.
It was Big’s heart which broke into half when Kinn got kidnapped.
The days he spent in veil, he blamed himself, he felt like an utter fail and the fear….the fear of losing Kinn and the thought of not seeing him again made him crazy.

The moment they saw Kinn’s body lying in the floor, blood on the ground, he knew he lost another part of him.
And he waited in the hospital days without even eating anything or drinking for to just hear Kinn was okay. But the moment Kinn woke, the first person he wanted to see was Porsche. Then he knew he can’t be in their line. He knew he lost and he could never fight again.
The past years became a fog in front of him in a minute.

“Give him my number.” Big muttered after washing his plates
“Wat? Really?” Ken grasped.
“Mmh” big hummed.
“Oh my god. Dude, he will die this instant” Ken said laughing before running to take his phone.
“Till when u have the phone?” Big asked.
They are not allowed to have their phones but when they are down for a duty outside ,it is permitted.
“I have to give back in a second. Don’t worry I know his number. We will call him in the telephone.”
Big just nodded and went to sit on the side of his bed.

He don’t know why he said it nor what is he doing. All he knows is that everything he has done or is doing or will do in the future is for Kinn.
He must step back.
He could smile by seeing Kinn’s smile with Porsche and that’s enough.
For Third, he is a tall,fair skin guy..and he has a dimple on one cheek and talks a lot, laughs a lot and smiles a lot. He listened to whatever nonsense that drunken Big told him tht night and all Big could remember was his smiley face.
“Broooooo…” Ken called happily
“He said okay. He will call you”
Big just smiled and nodded and Ken just pulled him into a hug.
“Im soo happy for u. I want you to feel happy too” Ken said moving back to look at Big’s face.
“Why don’t you call him this evening?”
“For what?” Big almost shouted.
“You guys can talk. Maybe set a date.”
“A date..? No way. I have duties”
“Oh come on Big, Im free this week I will substitute for u”
“You are crazy Ken. No way”
“Yo come on. We don’t know when we will get another chance like this”

And that’s how he found himself awkwardly dialing the numbers in the telephone which Ken repeated for him.
“And..5..4..00” He said and the line started ringing.
In a split minute the call connected and a ‘hello’ was all heard before Big panicked and passed the phone to ken who just passed it back.
“Talk or I’ll kill u” Ken mouthed.
“Hello?” Big asked more like whispered.
“Is-is it Big?” The voice asked
“Yes it is.” Big said awkwardly.
“Hi Big. How are you?” Third asked.
“Im fine Thank you P. How are y?” He asked.
“Im good and how’s work?”
“Good!”
“You had your dinner?” He asked laughing, his happiness too noticeable in the voice.
“Yes I did. And you?” Big mouthed a ‘I can’t’ to Ken to which he shushed Big.
“I did too.”
“So P, I called to ask if you want to talk?”
“Talk?” Third asked.
“Yes…just meet maybe and talk.”
“Yeah absolutely yeah. I would love that. A date that is then!”
What!
What? A date? No no what he meant was just a meet up
“Not a Dat-“
“What about the restaurant near the sea? Do u like that?”
“Oh It’s okay…” he said sighing
“So when are u free?”
“Can we set it to this weekend please?”
“Yeah yeah I would love that too.”
“Then it is P.”
“Alright Big. Sleep well, Good night.”
“You too P”
And Before third could say anything Big ended the call.

Big jumped into his bed and Ken followed him behind.
“So this weekend?”
“Yeah..”
“Beach ?”
“Ywah…..” he said closing his eyes.
“We have nothing on this Saturday. So u are good to go.”
“I think so”
“Ken, what do i tell Khun Kinn and p’chan?”
“That you are going for a date.”
“Nooo…” he whined.
“Why? It is not like they wouldn’t allow u to go. No rule such like bodyguards are not allowed to date and marry or to have kids”
“What?? Marry? Why are u saying that? Im just meeting up with him.”
“No I didn’t mean u. I said it as a whole”
And Big just left a heavy sigh for the fourth time after the call.

“So what are you going to wear tomorrow?”
“Tomorrow? For what?”
“Sir, tomorrow is Saturday today is Friday” ken said smiling.
“What?” Big shouted back.
Ken just broke into laughter.
“Isn’t the last Saturday yesterday? How did time fly this fast?” He asked.
“Ask yourself” Ken said laughing.
“What do I do? Kenn what do I do?” Big spent the whole night thinking the same question.
He didn’t know anything…he is scared..he is shaking and his heart beating.

Big pushed it morning and when Kenn woke up he jumped onto him asking questions and poured his heart out.
“Relax. Why don’t u meet Khun Kinn and ask for his permission first?”
“Yeah?”
“Yes..” He said pushing Big away.
So that’s what he did.
He took a quick shower, brushed his teeth, got in his uniform, combed his hair into a half bun and sprayed his favorite perfume.
“See you with P’chan” Ken said getting inside the shower to take a bath next.
“See ya” he replied before coming out the room.

He was nervous the whole time he walked. Each step brought him and khun Kinn closer.
Big took a deep breath before knocking on Kinn’s door with shaky hands.
He practiced his line over and over.
“Come in” the sweet yet harsh voice called him and Big’s breathe hitched.
He slowly opened the door and peeped inside to see Kinn in his robes sitting on th sofa, drinking tea while a bundle layed in his bed covered in duvet.
“Good morning Khun Kinn”
“Morning “ he said taking a sip.
And big slowly got inside the room, he knows he shouldn’t look but he can’t help but do.
He can see Porsche’s dark skin and thick hair underneath the cover and Big shifted his gaze immediately.
He felt something heavy in his heart.
“Why are y here?” Kinn asked slowly putting the cup on the table.
“I wish to take a day off today. Is it possible?” He asked slowly.
“Weren’t you off yesterday too?”
“Yes! I was having fever yesterday.”
“And today?”
“I have to meet someone?”
“Your mom not well?” Kinn asked.
Big was not the type to take a day off but would ask to go home to his mom, who is always alone in their house. Khun kinn was the one who saved them from debt and payed the hospital bill for Big. And Big is always grateful for that.
“No someone else.”
“Who?” Kinn aksed again.
“A-a Date.” He blurred out.
And a hum was all Big could hear. He was scared for some reason and was looking at the ground the entire time.
“Then you have to cancel it. Tell ur date to fix another day.”
And now Big looked up.
“I have an exhibition today. You, pete, ken, Arm”
Big nodded.
He knew why Porsche wasn’t included .

Big immediately thanked Kinn for his time and got out the room. He felt suffocated in there.
He walked fast to his room.
“Oh. You came back” ken who was tying his shoes looked up.
“What did khun Kinn said?”
“No”
“What! Why?”
“We have an exhibition”
“Again?”
“Aha.. the last one got canceled due to Porsche right? Now Khun Korn wants another to win i think”
Ken just sighed.
“Don’t worry. I will tell Third that u are not feeling well.”
“Thanks” he replied sitting on the sofa.
“But promise, u will go with him the next weekend.”
“Mmmh” he hummed again.

The evening was not soo long.
Ken and Big was assigned to travel infront of Kinn, in other car while Pete and Arm with Khun Kinn.
Big could see the smug look on Pete when Ken and him appeared.
It is usually there,especially from Porsche’s bestie.
“What?” Ken shouted at Pete
“Ken” Big pulled him back.
“No, like why is he staring at us like that..” Ken shouted at Big.
“Snap out of it. We are one team now” Arm shouted at all of them and Ken calmed down as Pete sighed and looked away.
“Stop it ken” Big whispered into Ken’s.
“First he should”
“We have planned to move on right? We are! Let’s not mix things more” Big said moving away.
“I know. Im sorry. But I can’t. Why are they looking at you like that, u and me have done things to Porsche but we never wanted to hurt him intentionally”
“SNAP OUT OF IT!” Arm shouted again and they all went silent.
Big and Ken waited infront of their car for Khun Kinn to arrive while Pete and Arm settled the weapons.

When their leader arrived Big couldn’t help but stare at him.
Kinn was so handsome today like he always is. He was in a red suit and his hair slicked back with some falling onto his forehead and in his hands shone the ring!
Ken nudge him and Big got out of the thoughts.
“Ready?” Kinn asked and Ken replied “yes”
“Let’s go” Kinn said before getting into his black Mercedes Benz.
Big and Ken got in their own cars and in a minute they started their journey.

The big mall was fully lighted and when the car pulled in the parking Big and Ken got out first to secure the parking lot before letting kinn out.
“Secured, over” Ken said from the entrance and Big opened the door for Kinn.
“Khun Kinn please” Big whispered moving away after opening the door.

Big escorted Khun Kinn into the exhibition hall and he could see neither of Khun Kinn’s friends there and he knows then that Kinn was forced by Khun Korn to attend this function.
Kinn fears his father the most, he fears nothing else.
Khun Korn often pushes Kinn into things he don’t like or doesn’t want to..Kinn tries to hide his unlikeliness but Big could simply read it in Kinn’s face.
Kinn’s eyes are the most expressive feature. When he is sad they narrows, when he is happy they wider..when he is excited it is always round and now a days Big can see Kinn’s eyes like half moon when he looks at Porsche, maybe it is for love.

“Sad you missed your date for this?” Kinn asked in his usual mocking cold tone interrupting Big’s thoughts.
“No Khun Kinn” Big said escorting Kinn into his reserved seats.
As soon as Kinn settled Big moved aside and stood on his watch.
“Area secured. Khun Kinn in the hall,over”
“Entry secured.”
“Exist secured “ each and everyone called out.

The exhibition started in a minute and the crowd got alive, everyone cheering and calling out their own numbers while Khun Kinn just stayed in his seat.
Big always had his two eyes on Khun Kinn.
Big could also see how uncomfortable kinn was and the first thing his mind registered was ‘he must miss Porsche’
Soon enough something inside his pants started vibrating.
It was Kinn calling him over and Big wasted no time getting there.
“Khun Kinn?”
“Call Pol”
Big didn’t get it at first but he quickly took his phone out and dialled the number.
“Here” he handed it over.
Big didn’t wanted to interfere nor it was right so he moved away.

“Porsche?” He heard Kinn’s voice. And he understands Kinn,he could hear from his voice how much he loved porsche.
And it is normal to miss your loved one when you are away or when they are away. Big knows.
“Are u okay” kinn asked again.
“U take rest. I’ll be back late” he assured.
“I will hang up then” he said flashing his smile.
It was Big’s first time seeing Kinn smile like that. He always wanted to see that smile, he always wondered what they would look like on Kinn. He always wanted to be reason for kinn’s smile but fate is different…But he is happy for Kinn, happy that he finally got to smile.

Kinn raised his hand up and Big immediately received the phone.
He quickly took a glance at them and he noticed how Third has requested him on Instagram and send different texts asking him if he was okay.
Big just sighed at them and pushed the phone inside.

Big moved back and again went to his look out.
The exhibition was almost coming to an end when he saw Pete running inside.
What was pete doing here? He was assigned at the entrance.
“Where is khun Kinn?” he asked
“What? Why?”
“He is not answering to my calls”
“He is there” big pointed at Khun kinn and Pete ran to him.

“Khun kinn” pete called and Khun didn’t reply.
“Khun” big called while Pete gently tapped on Kinn’s shoulders. The movement Pete touched him Kinn’s whole body fell on the sofa.
“Khun” they both panicked.
“Arm call the doctor.” Pete called out.

Kinn was lying in the bed in the hotel roon and the bodyguards except pete was outside, waiting for the doctor to check Kinn.
The moment the doctor came out, they all circled him.
“He was drugged. The drug was to kill him if it stayed in the body for 3 more minutes it would have killed him.”
“How is he now doctor?” Big asked.
“He is still in drugs but it would wear out in 3-4 hour or so”
“Doctor, can he leave now?” Pete asked
“It is better to let him rest for some hours” he said.
“Thank you doctor” Pete said and they all bowed.
Arm escorted the doctor down while Ken pulled Big into a hug.
“How was he drugged ?” Pete asked to Big.
“I don’t know” Big said.
He was sad, he was the reason Kinn was near to death. Whatever that was drugged must have been consumed by kinn here that too infront of him.
“What do u mean u don’t know” pete shouted back.
“What the hell u want? You talk like he drugged Khun Kinn” ken shouted back.
“He was right infront of Khun Kinn. He was on duty. What do u want me to ask then?”
“Guys please just stop fighting” Big said tiredly. He had enough.
“Then you give me an answer” pete asked again.
“Stop Pete, u talk like Big intentionally drugged Khun.”
“We don’t know we just can’t avoid the possibilities, we all know how envious he could be now that Kinn chose Porsche” he whispered the last sentence.
Before he could finish it Ken stood infront of him and already raised his hands to punch pete.
“Stop” Big cried pulling Ken back.
“Stop both of you rn. I was assigned as his bodyguards in the hall and by my mistake he lays there half death, I failed there as a bodyguard. And Pete if I wanted to drug him I could have done it way earlier. I was not a bodyguard here yesterday” Big said before he pulled Ken and walked out the room into the balcony

Soon Big's phone was filled with texts and calls from the main family.
He stated his informations to P'chan and also to Khun Korn.

The night was getting darker slowly and from the balcony Big could see the moon and the stars hiding behind the tall buildings.
"Pete went back. Arm is in watch. U in the stairs and me infront of khun's room" Ken said sitting beside Big on the balcony.
"Don't be sad. It was no one's fault" Ken said pulling Big in for another hug.
"It was. It was my fault. I should have been more careful. It's like my past years of being khun's bodyguards was never there. I failed to protect him" big said pushin Ken away
"Shut up Big. Pete says a lot of useless stuffs. They talked nothing when u literally died that night for Khun. U had your fracture for months and when things go south they talk like u did everything."
"It was my duty to protect him, I get paid for it Ken..you know it too. It was my fault entirely."
"Alright alright if u feel okay when I say that you are reason for the everything then I would do that."
"It's not a joke"
"It's not. You have been with the main family for years, more than any of us. Khun Korn trusts u, P'chan does and more importantly Khun Kinn does."
"He wouldn't anymore"
"Then don't let him, u can ask to get assigned with khun Kim" ken said smiling.
"Oh sorry sorry, i was just joking. Here I will say something to cheer u up."
"What?" Big asked avoiding the eye contact and looking straight at the sky.
"U take my position I will watch the stairs."
"Is it okay?" Big asked turning around to look at Ken
"Yes!" Ken smiled.
Soon their badge lit indicating time for their watch.
"See u when Khun wakes" kenn said geting up, he gave big a smile before he opened the door and vanished.
Big took a deep breath before going in.

It has been 2 hours and khun is still sleeping. His body is too weak and the drug is still active. They let him rest for more hours before going back.
Big stood infront of the room like a dog- alert to every movement, every sound and every motion.
He often takes glimpse inside the room through the window to make sure Khun was okay.
But the problem was the more he stood there the more he saw Khun Kinn lying there lifeless the more his guilt grew.
He was the only reason for all of this. He betrayed Khun trust over him. He should have been more careful.
He wanted to explain everything to Khun. He wanted say sorry. He wanted to apologize to him on his knees.
Kinn is the reason he is living this life today, he is the reason Big could say his home stands, his whole village lives and more importantly he is reason his mom lives.
They have only treated Big's village kindly while he here is being careful and was almost the reason for their god's death.

He was finding it difficult to breathe and his mind was flooding with thoughts of what would have happened ,when he heard a noise inside,.
A glass broke?
'What if khun is being attacked inside' and before even a second thought Big swinged opened the door.
He could see the broke glass and the water all over the floor but there is nothing, no one trying to attack only that Khun lying in the bed.
"Khun" big called quietly.
"Are u okay?" He asked.
"Do u need something?" He asked again but Kinn doesn't reply nor moved a inch from his position .
"Khun Kinn" he called again coming closer to take a look at Kinn.
And then Kinn mumbled something.
"Khun? What do u want? What did u say?" Big asked coming closer.
Again Kinn just mumbled.
"Water? U want water?" Big asked worried and to that Kinn just nodded no and murmured again.
"Say one more time Khun Kinn" he asked moving closer to hear what Kinn was saying, he moved down and got his ear infront of kinn's lips to catch what he was asking for.
"Big" kinn whispered softly.
"Yes Khun Kinn. What do u want"
"It hurts..."
"What hurts? Are u in pain? Where are u hurting khun?" Big asked worriedly.
"It hurts Big" kinn murmured again.
"Tell me Khun. Where are u hurting?" Big asked, his eyes welled with tears. He don't want to see his leader in pain, he don't want Kinn to suffer. He likes the smiley Kinn when he is with Porsche.
"Tell me khun?" He whispered softly, tears escaping from his eyes.
Kinn didnt reply.
"Khun?" Big called moving up and looking close at his face now.
He saw how Kinn's powerful eyes were looking straight at him. His gaze too sharp to pierce him.

Big was about to say something but before he could open his mouth Khun Kinn's hand moved up, grabbed him forcefully by the jaw and pulled him in a kiss?
A kiss?
Big's brain was frozen for a minute, the information too much to register.
Khun Kinn kissing him? That too him? No no this is a dream.
He was damn sure it was a dream before Khun moved his lips on his own and now his thought got fire.
He pushed Kinn away and stood back.
"Big..." Kinn moaned in a lustful way sending shocks right through Big's body.
"Khun. Im sorry. I didn't mean to shove u."
"Help me Big"
"Khun I can't. I don't know. It is not right."
"Help me..it is hurting me. I can't anymore. I need help" Kinn cried his face scrunched up while his hands moved over his buttons on the shirt.
Big didn't mean to peak but he could see the tent in Kinn's pants.
"Please Big" Kinn cried after successfully breaking the buttons on his shirt, now his hands slowly moving to palm his cock which stood up for attention.
"I can't sorry Khun. I will ask for help. U wait here. I will.i...will call the doctor..or Porsche" he said fumbling through his pocket for phone.
"Aaah" kinn cried out in pain and Big's heart broke. He rushed to Kinn's side after hearing the loud scream.
"Please bear for 2 minute Khun" he tried to shush Kinn.
"You r crying. Why?" Kinn whispered weakly.
"I-I don't know." He cried out,tears down his cheek.
"Help me please Big. It is too much. It is hurting me"
"I will call rn Khun" big said moving away cause his dumbass forgot the phone in the balcony but before he could take more step his hands pulled him back.
"U like me don't u?" Kinn asked pulling on his hands.
"What?" Big asked. It was the first time Khun said something like that.
"U like me right? So why don't you help me Big?" He asked his eyes straight at Big.
"Khun?"
"We can't.. I can't. U would regret everything u say right now. You are in a relationship..in a lovely beautiful relationship. It is just drugs talking now. I don't want to destroy your happiness with my foolishness. I would never destroy your smile...it's better if I call for help"
"Then shoot me before u go. Please..." he cried out moving away from Big.
Big knows it is the drugs talkin and the effects would wear out in a hour or so but he can't bear to watch this.
"Don't talk like that Khun Kinn" Big begged.
"My body feels like falling apart, getting ripped in half."
"Im sorry. Im so sorry it is because of me you are in this state" Big cried.
Kinn suddenly screamed again .His scream too painful.
"Big big...please..im begging you. Please...." He asked again, his eyes flowing down like a river.
"No Khun. Don't beg me. I can't. I may be selfish but I know Porsche loves u, u love Porsche dearly too"
"Porsche, i love him. I love him so much ...he is the only thing I have in this world .Big, I will talk to Porsche. I will talk to him, apologize to him. I can't I can't bear another hell minute in here alone. He would understand."
"Khun just relax it is just the drugs talking."
"He would understand Big. He was also drugged many times..he knows what it feels like..I understood him then."
"He didn't had sex with his bodyguard then" big shouted. It was getting troublesome.
He couldn't stand the sight of the man infront of him. He was soo hot there. His buttons all broken and his shirt wide open. His well defined abs shining in the yellow dim light .
"He had. U would never know this situation cause u never experienced it. I understood him then. I forgave him having sex with Vegas. I don't want more from you. I just want a help. I will never regret it."
"Khun kinn" called Big pathetically.
"My porsche would understand." Kinn whispered.
And then Kinn screamed again in agony.
"Please stop Khun Kinn" Big begged.
"Kill me if u are going now" Kinn said moving away.
Big could see the pain in his face, the way he was crawling in the bed begging for help.
Big only knows Kinn as the powerful leader they had and he will always remember him like that.
"I will help u" Big sighed.
He slowly wiped his eyes and moved towards Kinn whose face just lit up hearing it.
"I-I will jerk u off, that would cool u down for sometime..then I will go and call someone for help" Big said slowly rubbing his hands nervously.
It was his first time. He is expert in giving pleasure to himself but he has never done that to anyone. While on Kinn's side he had so many toys and would expect the extreme.
Big has never been with someone to experience those things in the first place, his mind was occupied with only thing called 'Kinn'. Big loved kinn but he is not sure he is gay or bi or whatever cause he hasn't experimented with his sexuality yet neither did he have any time...his life was just Kinn from his early age.

Big slowly moved to palm the tent in Kinn's pant. He could do nothing but bite his mouth.
Slowly he just grabbed it and immediately Kinn's face again lit up, his eyes rolling back and mouth wide open.he hissed at Big
Kinn's hands moved from the bedsheet to place it on top of Big's hand. Slowly guiding it and letting him have more.
Big didn't know what he was feeling at that time, he was guilty yet a excitement was keeping him move further. He wanted to know more, he wanted to see more.
He liked Kinn's face under him, he liked how much he could control Kinn now. He loved Kinn's expressions now, he wanted to see more of it.
Big looked at Kinn's face softly and nodded his head asking for permission which Kinn just granted immediately.

Big slowly moved to tower Kinn's body under him while his hands unbuckled the belt and unzipped his pant.
He could feel Kinn hard against him but what he did unintentionally shook them both. He accidentally grind onto Kinn's and before he could say anything Kinn moaned. And to shock Big more Kinn was now rubbing against Big.
"Khun Kinn. Please..." Big said stopping Kinn.
Kinn didn't respond so Big just leaded.
He pulled Kinn's underwear down along with his pants.
To be honest, Big is impressed with Kinn's size.
He was huge, large... more than any thai man.
Kinn's hard cock was aching for attention and Kinn's face was looking at Big with anticipation.
Big slowly yet steadily had his hands around Kinn's cock. Slowly moving his hands up and down studying Kinn's every motions.
He gradually increased his speed moving faster and faster as Kinn started moaning more.
"Ahh....Big..." kinn moaned into Big's ears.
Kinn may not know and he has no idea how it was turning Big so hard on.
He also wanted to rub his dick onto Kinn's. His cock was dying inside for any attention. And Kinn’s moans were not helping much
"Aah...big..big" Kinn moaned continuously as Big's hand moved faster.
Bug could see Kinn was nearing the climax as he arched himself for more and more..
"Aah..khun Kinn" Big moaned into Big's ears, moving down to nibble on Kinn's open neck while jerking him very fast.
And with that Kinn came all over Big's hand, sighing and breathing hard.
Big moved up to see Kinn's face and was very satisfied. He could see Kinn was relaxed..more relaxed than usual.

And again that night Big did something embarrassing and most dumbest.
Whatever that was going on his mind was too much as he licked Kinn's hot cum in his hands with his tongue. And when his mind registered it, it was too late. He looked back at Kinn who just stared back at him surprised.
"No-I didn't-no Sorry kh-"
But before he could finish, in a split second he was moved down the bed with Kinn now towering him.
"Khun Kinn.." Big called trying to push him away.
"An...big ..stop calling me that. It is turning me soo on" Kinn whispered into Big's ears leaning in.
"Khun Please stop...we had an agreement…one time!" Big said pushing Kinn away.
"I don't thing I agreed to any" Kinn said before he shocked Big by licking his ears.
"Khun.." big whined.
"Stop fighting Big,u agreed to help so let me guide u into helping"  Kinn said before licking again and again on Big's ears, slowly nibble on his pierced earlobe.
"Khun...im tellimg u..u would regret this"
"And Im telling u...I wouldn't" Kinn said as he moved up to pull on Big's black uniform tshirt.
Big tried to resist but somewhere he just lost..maybe he did let Kinn win.
He never wanted to bring Porsche and his happiness down. It may be his fault but what done is done. They can't do anything else..so he just accepted everything.
Maybe..somewhere in his mind..he knew it will be the first and last and only chance with Kinn.
He just wanted this night to be his. He know he is selfish but he just wanted Kinn tonight, to let him go forever.

Big moved up to pull on his shirt nodding his head at Kinn as he nodded back and went down to push down Big's pants and underwear together leaving him naked suddenly.
Big didn't predict this vulnerability fast. He was shy all of a sudden.
He could feel his face heatin up and he tried to cover himself as he crossed his legs.
Big's face grew more redder as Kinn just chuckled and pushed his legs away.
"One round only!" Big muttered and Kinn just smirked and nodded.

Kinn's hand moved in between both Kinn's and Big's cocks, holding them softly. But when Kinn started moving at a steady motion Big couldn't contain. He just made some not so pleasant sound.
And as Kinn moved faster with both of them he couldn't hold back but moan louder.
"Khun Kinn..." Big moaned.
"Ekh Don't do this to me Big" Kinn moaned as he moved faster.
"Aah...khun.." Big cried as Kinn began sucking on his neck while leaving small bites along.
"Big...ah. U smell so fucking good..ah..." Kinn mumbles as he moved faster and faster while sucking on Big's open neck.
They moaned together again and again. Suddenly Kinn stopped and pulled Big's face with his hands into a kiss.
Big moaned into that kiss. It was his first kiss not first but second. His first was earlier this same day by the same person.

Kinn started sucking and licking in his lips for more and more and Big could do nothing but give him all..
He opened his mouth to let Kinn in as he kissed Kinn the same way.
They kissed and sucked each other's soul through.
Big could hear Kinn groaning while Big moaned into the kiss.
They have been kissing for an eternity as Kinn moved down again to Big's jaws, slowly kissing and biting his way down to Big's chest.
And Before even Big could push Kinn away Kinn just took his vulnerability. He started sucking on his erected nipple while slowly twisting the other.
“Beautiful…” he muttered before every kiss..
Big grasped tightly onto Kinn and he was sure he let some scratches along.

Big wanted more but he was determined to let Kinn have the same so he tried to push Kinn back down but Kinn pushed him further down by force.
"I want more Big" Kinn whispered slowly as he left a small lick on the nipple.
"What..?" Big asked as he shuttered.
"Move your legs wider Big" Kinn whispered as he moved down to push Big's legs away, slowly kissing Big’s abs and waist.
"What? What..? Khun Kinn what are u doing...?"
"When u called me Khun Kinn u lost me,there is no turning back now,Love" Kinn said as he smirked to push Big's lower body up.
"Aah..." big moaned as Kinn suddenly moved his finger over to the rim of his hole.
"Big..." Kinn called looking at big from above.
"Khun..." Big asked.
"Call my name when I touch u" Kinn said before he send Big straight to heaven.
He moved down slowly, bending Big’s legs as he pushed a finger into Big's open mouth while he licked Big's pink hole.
Big shuttered under Kinn's every touch. He could do nothng but obey Kinn.

He sucked on Kinn's finger and every other fingers as he added more.
And Big grasped louder as he felt Kinn suddenly piercing Big's hole with his tongue.
"Kbun Kinn..." Big moaned arching his back.
And that did made Kinn more excited as he moved inside Big faster while his hands still in Big's mouth.
"Big..." Kinn pulled out after he felt satisfied.
Big couldn't open his mouth as he looked only at Kinn for whT he was saying.
"I need you”Kinn moaned as he moved his hands down to push his fingers into the tight pretty holes without any warning, making Big squirm.
"Ah..Big" Kinn grunted as he moved his finger in.
Big could say nothing as he was on another level of euphoria.
Big pulled Kinn into his chest tightly when it become too much for him .
"Please...Khun Kinn...I aah.." Big moaned into Kinn's ears as he suddenly added one more finger.
"You are looking at me right now with the same look u had for 10 years" Kinn growled into Big's chest before adding one more finger.
“Like I give you life”
"I can't...Kinn..." Big moaned louder holding Kinn closer and tighter.
But before he could say more Kinn pulled out and pushed their lips together.
They kissed with more passion. Big felt the sudden emptiness under and inside him but he enjoyed the kiss.
He gave himself to Kinn, he gave everything in that Kiss.

big could feel Kinn's hands moving down again but suddenly he felt something behind him and Kinn looked at Big passionately, breaking the kiss. Big just nodded and pulled Kinn again for a kiss as Kinn slowly pushed himself in.
Kinn groaned and grunted in the kiss while Big just shivered.
"Khn...it hurts...stop please" Big said as he tried to tap on Kinn's shoulder.
"Im sorry..it will get better, I promise. Bear with me,Big" Kinn growled as he kissed Big again, trying to ease him.
And it was as he said, it got better! The best actually.
“How do you feel?” Kinn asked licking his neck
He was completely inside Big as he moved up to start kissing Big on his eyes, cheeks, nose and mouth continuously.
“Full..” Big shuttered..
“Does it hurt?” kinn asked kissing Big’s cheek.
“No but yes..I don’t know, u are a lot too big” Big said opening his eyes to look at Kinn.
"Move..." Big muttered again with eyes close, pulling Kinn more closer together.
"U have no idea how much I want to.." Kinn growled as he started moving slowly.

Big moaned louder along with Kinn, arching himself for more.
"Aah Khun Kinn..It..good..." Big confessed out loudly.
He was feeling it for the first time and it made him doubt why he hasn't done it yet. It was addicting.
"Big..it feels so fucking good" Kinn said moving faster and faster inside.
“You fit perfect. I love it” he added looking straight at Big’s face.
Big's face was beautiful to Kinn in that moment, his hair loosely tied and his eyes all closed, enjoying himslef while his mouth hanged open. His hands trying to find ways to hold Kinn closer and deeper.
Kinn could just smirk.
"I don't think your P'Third can make u feel this good" Kinn growled into Big's ears moving extra faster.
"Khun kinn…slowly ple-.." Big moaned loudly as he came all over inbetween them.
Two more thrusts and Kinn  buried himself deep inside Big, shooting his loads into Big's tight hole.

Kinn fell onto Big's body,both of them sighing heavily.
"It was fucking great"  Kinn moaned into Big's skin while Big had only energy left to just nod.
"Why did u cry earlier?" Kinn asked looking at Big,lying in Big's stomach.
"Uhmm?" Big mumbled.
"You cried earlier. Why?" Kinn asked again as he slipped out of Big's
"You were in pain" Big said closing his eyes.
"So u cried?" kinn asked moving up to kiss Big's collar bone.
"Well your are our leader Khun Kinn" big said smirking, he knows his effect on Kinn.
"Oh comeon Big..." Kinn said groaning.
"Khun Im sorry" Big said suddenly in a very serious tone.
"For?"
"For everything. To you and to Porsche. I will apologize to him. And Im the reason u are drugged and was almost dead"
"So u just wanted to take responsibility? U wanted to have sex with me as a way of sorry?"
"No I never thought of it like that. I was the reason for this but I didn't think of this as that...I enjoyed what we.. did..."
“You did?"  Kinn asked smiling brightly as he moved beside Big who just closed his eyes and stayed silent.
"Then how about another go?" Kinn asked smirking as he moved his waist to touch Big's hand.
"Are u hard again Khun Kinn?" Big asked wideeyed.
"Why don't u see for yourself" Kinn said moving Big's hand onto his hard nong.
"You promised it was one round only"
"I don't remember any promises I made"  kinn said as he pulled Big up.
"Khun.." Big shouted as he now sat in Kinn's waist.
"Relax Big" Kinn said as he moved his hand behind Big to snatch his hairtie leaving Big's hair open.
"Why did you do that?" big whined as he looked at the broken two pieced hair tie.
"I want to see you like that on top of me" Kinn said as he pulled Big's hand to leave a kiss.
"This is final okay!?"
"Mmhm" Kinn nodded as he moved his hands all through Big's hair, slowly loving and caring the soft texture.
"You said the same last2 times"
"Oh my god." Kinn fake gasped and Big could just smile.
He was literally sitting on a rock and he didn't wanted to wait any longer.
Big moved his hand down to hold Kinn's hard dick slowly entering him into his hole while he tried his best to stay still.

“Fuck Big” Kinn cursed under him.
Hearing Kinn cursing Big opened his eye slightly to look at Kinn who just looked and smiled at him, his eyes in crescent moon shape.
“Khun Kinn” Big screamed as pushed and felt Kinn deep inside him.
Both of them moaning and grunting together as Big later started moving up amd down Kinn's dick faster.
Big's hair falling all over his face as he tried his best to pleasure both of them.
"Khun Kinn..." Big moaned and Kinn could only moan back.
"Big..u are amazing...ahaaa" he moaned while holding Big tightly in his waist.
Big tried to keep up but he was tired, he wanted Kinn to just fuck into him mercilessly.
"Khun...Kinn ..please" Big whispered as he hold Kinn's hand together.
Kinn only smirked as he moved Big on his own wish.
Pulling and pushing Big by the waist as he kept looking at him.
His face was more than words could explain, it was so beautiful.
"Knun kinn" Big called out as he moved his own hand over his cock while getting fucked by Kinn under him.
"So fucking good.. Big" Kinn whispered over and over.
"Kinn..." Big called as he came all over Kinn's stomach.
But he couldn't stop moaning as Kinn targeted and kept hitting his sweet spot over and over.
Finally after a long time, Kinn came deep inside him. So much deeper than before that Big could sense the weirdness inside.
Kinn just pulled Big in, Big accepted it and layed on top of Kinn,half dead.

"Was it good?" Big asked tiredly wanting to make sure he did well for the first time.
"It was fucking awesome. U did perfect." Kinn said as he moved his hands over Big's hair.
He could smell Big's soft hair. It smelt like roses..
"Can u help me move aside" Big asked not wanting to disturb Kinn.
"Why? Stay there. U have me still inside."
"Pull it out" Big muttered slowly.
"Not a chance. I will do whatever I want" Kinn said moving slowly inside.
"Stop that Khun" Big slowly hit Kinn on his chest.
"Oh okay just kidding" Kinn said laughing as he pulled himself out.
Big moved aside and layed there looking at Kinn who just looked back.
"You regret having to miss your date?" Kinn asked moving Big's hair back behind his ears.
"No- Partially yes. Well I don't know"
"Why? Where did u planned to go?"
"Seaside."
"You don't like beach?"
"No...I hate getting wet. I prefer peaceful places..like in a mountain in a small house...having to spend time with ur date..all day cuddling and talking"
"No sex?" Kinn asked and Big just looked at him and rolled his eyes.
"Well..at night..we could. But morning is reserved for sweet kisses and cuddling"
"What about evening and dinner time?"
"Then we fuck" Big said wanting to give Kinn his satisfaction of victory.
"U are a sex addict,Big" Kinn said laughing and Big could only roll his eyes again.
He wanted to say 'funny comin from u' but he mustn't forget Kinn is still his Khun.
"Yes I am" he said letting Kinn win again.

"Your hair is pretty, why do u tie it. It is beautiful open like this" Kinn said combing them again as Big just stayed dead there.
"Open like this? Nah it is too troublesome" Big said not even opening his eyes.
"No I think it is so beautiful."
"So why don't u try having long hair." Big asked slowly moving. He could sense the cum oozing out of him.
"Pa wouldn't allow" Kinn said.
"Oh.." Big could just say that. What else can he say?
"Why don't u lend me yours?" Kinn said joking as he moved in.
"Yeah take it." Big said as he moved up to wipe the oozing cum with his finger.
"It is leaking?" Kinn asked moving in more as he went inside the blanket to touch Big's ass.
"It is alright. We all know where this is going so back back" Big said pushing Kinn away lightly.
"Oh come on. I am just helping here" kinn said as he grasped Big's ass.
"Thanks for the help now move away" Big said smiling.
"Let me see if the help is enough" Kinn said as he pushed his finger in.
"Khun Kinn..." Big whined.
"Now u are not helping" Kinn sighed as he suddenly moved up with Big, pushing him down the sheet.
"Up,Love" Kinn whispered deeply as he pulled Big's ass up in the air under him.

And the night was just starting. They kept fucking and fucking breaking every promise Kinn gave.
And Big himself don't know when or how he fell asleep when they took a short break.

When the sun hit Big's face he almost wanted to shout and scream.
He was ready to kick Ken's ass for leaving the curtains open when the last night memory hit him.
He startled awake and looked around.
It was not a dream. It was real.
He looked down the blanket anf he could see the stains and his whole body was sticky and messy with proofs of what they have done.
His hair tie broken in two pieces just layed in the bed.
Khun Kinn!
He moved away to look beside him but what met him was an empty space.
Now really was the reality

Big tried to move up, his body too weak to move but his mind made and too stubborn to fail.
He moved his body slowly off the bed with the pain of thousand bones cracking. And when he felt the victory of standing he was soon met with failure.
He stumbled and fell on the cold floor.
His legs too weak to even move an inch.
Big tried to look around for something to stand as his eyes met a paper which must have fallen from the bed.

'Take rest. - Kinn'

Big walked up the hall of main family’s mansion.
He was scared when he knew everyone left him. He knows Kinn must have lied about sending him to another mission or something. But He don’t want any rest.
“Big?” A voice called and he knows it was Ken.
“Ken.!” Big called out smiling, he was still holding onto the grill of the stairs. His legs still shaking under him.
“How did it go?” Ken asked.
“Well…good” Big replied not sure what he is asking.
“I was scared when u weren’t there at morning.” Ken said moving his hands to Big’s neck where bandages are sticked.
“Is it bad?” Ken asked trying to remove one of them.
“No. It is okay” big said moving his hands away.
“I thought u wouldn’t come today, Khun Kinn told us so”
“The mission ended faster tham I thought” Big said as he climbed up the rest of the steps.
“So go to our room.where are u going? U don’t have any duty today” Ken said
“I have to talk to Khun Korn” Big said walking to Korn’s room.

Big knocked on Korn’s room and p’chan opened the door for him.
“Come in” he said.
“Hey Big” khun korn said as soon as he came inside.
“Good morning Khun Korn” Big bowed.
“Morning. How did your mission go?”
“Good Khun Korn”
“Are u here to apologize for yesterday’s incident with Kinn?”
“Yes also I have something to say Khun Korn”
“We have caught the culprit Big. The water he drank was drugged, anyway it is all fine now. So what do u want to talk?”
“Khun Korn I am requesting for resignation.”
“Oh…any particular reason” Korn asked after a moment of thinking.
“Nothing Khun Korn, I just want some time for myself. To study and get to know me more.” Big said looking down.
“I understand,If that’s makes u happy.” khun korn said as he sliced his apple into two.
“Thank you Khun Korn” big bowed to both Korn and to P’Chan.
“Thanks for your service here Big.” Korn said as he stood up.
“See u.” He added before walking back inside his bedroom.
“Hey Big!” He called suddenly and Bug turned back.
“U lose many things if u give up easily” he said as he walked away.
Big too walked out of the room but a hand pulled him aside and a slap was resonated in the hall.
“P’Chan?” Big asked covering his stinking cheek.
“Fuck u doing?” P’Chan asked. His voice in his not so usual strict tone.
“Nothing.” Big said looking down.
“Then say sorry and rejoin the group” p’chan said angrily.
“Im afraid I can’t do that.”
“What happened Big?” P’chan asked, his voice now soften to a P asking his nong.
“Nothing P’chan. Just tired.”
“What do u mean tired? Are u sick?”
“No.”
“Big, think about it. Don’t stress much” Chan said patting him on the shoulder.
“I have been thinking for years now P. Think about it, I don’t know myself, I don’t know what I like, what I desires, What I want. I have spend my entire life here. Now I wish to spend some time for myself, if it makes me selfish.”
And P’chan just sighed again.
“I understand…Stay health and happy” P’chan said and patted him again.
“I have to go” he said pointing at the headphones.
“See u. Stay healthy and happy P’chan. I will miss u” he said pulling P in for a hug.
P returned the hug and went inside before giving him a smile.

Big stood in-front of the another door in the mansion.
The most feared door for Big.
His heart beating fast and his legs too heavy to even move.
Big knocked slowly on the door
“Come in.” Someone called from inside.
Big stepped in to see Kinn and Porsche sitting on the sofa together, having coffee.
“Oh Big!” Kinn called.
“Good morning Khun Kinn” Big called.
“same, I thought you were having rest today right?” Kinn asked looking at his teacup.
Big was sure Porsche didn’t know what happened yet or else Big expected a big slap.
And also the not changing look from Porsche explains it..
“I was fine so I came back” Big said looking down.
“Good then. I will ask Pa to move u again to my bodyguard, I want information about Don this evening and tomorrow morning we will go to see him.” Kinn said moving a file near him.
“Khun Kinn, I have came to say goodbye. I can arrange the information but I will be resigning today itself”
And Big looked up to see both Kinn and Porsche’s eyes widen.
“I wanted to apologize and Thankyou for the past 10 years..” Big said
“Porsche, I want to say sorry..for everything ..I hope u both stay happy and healthy” Big said as he bowed down.
“I will take my leave now. Sorry for the disturbance” Big added before moving out the room.

“Big..!” khun Kinn’s voice echoed the hall. The power he holds.
“Khun kinn?” Big stopped to look around.
“What do u want big?” Kinn asked as he forcefully pinned Big into the wall.
“Nothing Khun.” Big said trying his best to escape from the grasp.
“It is about yesterday night right“ Kinn growled, his hot breathe hitting Big’s face.
“No Khun Kinn. I have been thinking about this for a while.”
“About what? Don’t forget what we have done to you, your family and ur whole village. And remember. Your life belongs to me”
“Khun Kinn i am always thankful for the help u have done for us these past years.. and If u want I could return my entire salary of 10 years working here, I have only taken money for my food and nothing else.”
“Mmh..soo u pay with money for everything..”
“I didn’t mean that Khun Kinn. I have spend my entire youth here working for u as my gratitude for the help u have done…I wanted nothin else. Now I wish to have a bit of time for myself. I want to take care of me.”
“Like going on a fucking date with your P’third on your fucking mountain.?”
“I hope u understands khun Kinn.” Big said as he finally pushed Kinnaway.
“I hope you have all the happiness u deserves.” Big bowed down.
Kinn just stayed silent, looking straight at Big, his eyes burning hot.
“Thanks for ur service here all these years…” Kinn said as he turned to walk away.

Ken was too much easy to explain. He understood Big the moment he told him.
“I want u to be happy” ken said as he hugged Big.
“I love u Ken” Big said returning the hug.
“Tonight we are celebrating.” Ken said pulling away as he walked towards the fridge, opening the cans of beers.
And as they said,they celebrated.
The last day in Theerapanyakul’s mansion.

Ken came to open the door to the knocking and he was surprised to see Khun kinn infront .
“Khun Kinn?”
“Where is Big?”
“He left early morning.”
“To where?”
“To the station.”
“Where is he planning to go?”
“I don’t know Khun. I have asked but he didn’t reply, I couldn’t accompany him to the station because of my early duty.”
“Mmh..” kinn hummed as he turned around.

Big was standing in the street with his suitcase.
The same old platform and the same old stores…
He is back here in the streets as the 19 years old.
This is perfect. Perfect for everyone and for everything.

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