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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    03 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander knows he’s not the easiest person to love.

    As Ottawa’s captain, he’s busy. He’s particular. But he manages it. He’s always managed it. Shane makes sure his anxiety never becomes anyone else’s problem.

    And he’s lucky—his boyfriend Clayton is willing to put up with him just fine.

    Clayton isn’t always perfect, but he’s a great guy. Shane knows how lucky he is to have someone like him.

    Even if it hurts sometimes.

    Ilya Rozanov has just been drafted, and he’s ready to prove to the league that it’s his year. He’s played against Shane Hollander for years. He knows exactly how good Ottawa’s captain is on the ice.

    But the more Ilya sees of Shane off the ice, the more something starts to feel wrong.

    Because Shane Hollander might be the perfect captain.

    But his life doesn’t look anything like Ilya imagined.

    And seriously—who the fuck is Clayton?
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    Or, Shane thinks he's hard to love. Ilya violently disagrees.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander has a secret boyfriend, and it’s not Ilya Rozanov. That’s for the best, though, because Shane’s boyfriend is absolutely perfect on paper. He’s also completely on board with the need to keep their relationship out of the press to avoid ruffling any feathers at the MHL commissioner’s office.

    There’s only one problem with Shane’s boyfriend. He’s not Ilya Rozanov.

    (Canon divergence where Ilya and Shane do separate photo shoots pre-rookie season and never hook up. Somehow. So then Shane has a “normal” dating life.)

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    26 Mar 2026

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    “Did you… plan this? Even before I told you about…? Had you already planned to ask me to stay, and to… cook for me?”
    Ilya freezes, looking caught, before he says unconvincingly, “No?” and turns back to the fridge, leaving Shane staring at the side of his face.
    “Rozanov.”
    He winces. “Maybe? I was thinking about it. I was worried you would say no.”
    “Why would I say no?”
    “You almost did say no,” Ilya reminds him, giving up and turning to face him again. “You tell me.”
    Oh. Shane had almost said no, because… this isn’t what they do. They fuck, sometimes cuddle for a bit, and leave. And maybe if this were last season, and if Shane hadn’t been working all summer on getting more comfortable with deviating from his years-old routines, he’d be a lot less cool about all this.
    But Shane’s been getting better at figuring out what he wants and not just what he’s supposed to want, and at letting himself have the things he wants, and, well, he wants this. He wants Ilya.


    In the summer of 2016, Shane starts to heal his relationships with himself, his body, and his desires. That October, Ilya gets to be grateful for the results, in more ways than one.

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    22 Mar 2026

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    Ilya’s dad dies right before the 2017 All-Star Game, so he never learns that Shane and Rose broke up. While he’s in Russia, a threat from his brother makes him ask Svetlana for help and marry her so he can get a US green card—it’s meant to be a discreet, simple thing, but the Boston tabloids get a hold of it and then it’s all over social media. Three months later, Shane Hollander holds a press conference to share two things: he's leaving Montreal to play for the Ottawa Centaurs, and he's gay.

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    15 Mar 2026