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Happiness is attainable, Jungkook has come to believe in the few years he's been with Taehyung. Taehyung made him a better person, Taehyung taught him love, Taehyung showed him feelings, Taehyung made him smile, Taehyung gave him Joy, Taehyung is his happiness.
As Jungkook watches his unconscious mate lies helpless and lifeless in the hospital, he knows Taehyung is not just his happiness,Taehyung is his life, Taehyung is his entire existence.
"Don't worry Mr Jeon he should be up at any moment" A male nurse said after checking his unconscious male.
"I don't understand how he's not waking up it's been days" Taehyung's mum cried out frustrated
"He did lose a lot of blood, his wolf seems really weak, like I said he should be up any moment. Once again I'm sorry for your loss" There go those words again, he doesn't know why he feels like a part of him died. He didn't even want a child but the death of his unborn child feels worse than any pain he's ever felt.
He's responsible for his mate being here, for the death of his unborn child, Jungkook feels like a failure, he's supposed to protect them yet he failed them
He doesn't know how long he's been sitting down here and just staring at his beautiful mate.
A slight movement from his mate puts his full sense on alert. Jungkook watch as his mate blinks his eyes open trying to adjust to the bright light in the hospital room.
Jungkook feels shame dancing on his head, how is he supposed to face Taehyung?
"Hey" Jungkook said with a voice he never thought he had. Taehyung's eyes immediately landed on him and all he saw was emptiness.
"Where's my mom?" Jungkook really feels like crying, he deserves this
"I ummm- she should be outside with your friends"
The room grows silent and cold
"Ba-" Jungkook starts
"Not now Jungkook" The younger gulped at hearing his name and the tone that accompanied it. "I don't want to see you right now, I don't want to talk to you either" Taehyung said so softly like those words wasn't literally stabbing his heart, but he deserves this
Taehyung knows he lost their baby, his mate hates him. Jungkook feels like ripping his heart from his chest, cause this is so painful, he feels his heart bleeds.
"I--" his voice cracks, he's about crying, he clears his voice
"Please" came the weak pleading voice.
"Yeah I - Uhm ok - I uhmm- I'll call your mom" Jungkook stood up with weak legs, heading for the door, he didn't bother to turn back, everything hurts, it hurts so badly.
*
"How're you feeling?"
"Mom, I said I'm fine, I'm alright the doctors cleared me for a reason"
Taehyung was discharged a day ago, he came back to the mansion instead of going back home to his mate.
He just needed to be away from Jungkook for a bit. He's really hurt from the loss of their baby, a part of him is blaming Jungkook, the other part of him is blaming himself.
It's all his fault, he killed his own baby. If only he was able to keep his hormones on check, if only he didn't run out like that, maybe his child would be alive. Would that have been fair to Jungkook? no, but Taehyung is an omega, he'll rather die than deliberately hurt his own flesh
"What has happened has happened" So he keeps hearing, Taehyung knows all that but what about the future, he still wants a child of his own.
He wants Jungkook, he also wants a child why can't he have both? The goddess has decided he can only have one?
"Stop blaming yourself child"
"I don't know how to mom, it hurts" Taehyung said crying, he couldn't stop being so emotional. His mum brings him into a tight hug.
"You can still have another baby Tae just--"
"That's the problem mom" The younger said letting out a frustrated sigh. "I don't think he'll ever want one and I'm supposed to understand, I'm supposed to understand him, but I can't, I want it so badly, I want him so badly too," the younger broke down again. "Why can't I have both"
"Shh it's ok son, calm down, it's gonna be ok I promise"
And Taehyung believes her cause he's desperate to believe anything.
*
Jungkook walks down the quiet street of Busan, he couldn't drive right now, his head is a mess, his entire life is a mess.
If someone was to ask him why he hates the idea of being a father so much. Jungkook will proudly say it's because kids are noisy or whatever bullshit he always comes up with.
But deep down he knows it's because he's scared. He's scared of failing his child, he's afraid of making his child's life miserable, he's afraid of being a failure as a father, he's afraid of his child growing up to hate him.
He grew up with so much hatred, hated everyone mostly because he felt no one loved him, most of his childhood was his father sending him from one facility to another
He grew up resenting his father, he hated his stepmom, he hated his siblings because they had what he didn't have as a child.
He doesn't want to bring a life into this world and then end up making them miserable.
He's made a lot of mistakes, one of which he'll regret till the day he dies.
Hurting Taehyung, he regrets it with every bone in his body. If only things started out differently but they didn't hence came the change to be a better person.
Yet again he failed, what if it was worse, what if? Jungkook shook his head, trying hard not to think too hard of the accident.
There's only one thing is sure of right now, he has no life without Taehyung.
Jungkook walks back home with slow and heavy steps, he has no one waiting for him at home so he's not really eager to return home. His house is cold and empty without his mate.
Jungkook has been going for dinner and breakfast at the mansion for days now, any excuse to see his mate, he'll gladly take it.
But it hasn't really been successful since his mate is doing everything within his power to avoid him.
Jungkook walked up to his front door, head everywhere but where he is, the alpha put in his code and walked inside.
He stopped walking when he noticed a sight that almost brought him to tears.
Taehyung, his mate, he's right here. He's in Jungkook's clothes, his beautiful body was lying comfortably on their sofa.
The omega must have noticed his presence, he stood up abruptly with a beautiful smile adorning his face. Jungkook feels paralyzed from his head to toe, he couldn't move, he couldn't do anything but stare at his mate.
"Hi" came the soft angelic voice that he has missed so much
Jungkook forced his mouth to respond a simple "hello"
"Are you just going to stand there" The omega points out his inability to function.
Jungkook is a mess, an embarrassing mess, he awkwardly moves his heavy legs with an awkward smile. He made his way to sit on the sofa with a big space between them.
He wants to bring his mate into his arms, he wants to hold him tight and never let go.
Is this really happening or is he dreaming?
Jungkook can't even look at his mate properly, how did it get to this?
"How have you been?" comes the deep honey voice again. Jungkook turns to look at his mate, Taehyung looks so soft so beautiful.
"I-I've been good" way to go jungkook. "How have you been?" he added to cover up his embarrassing stuttering
"Good"
Then it was silent, an awkward one. Things really got bad between them, how could he let it get this bad.
Jungkook wants to say a lot of things, all the things he's been practising to say none of it made its way to his head, his head was empty.
He was also afraid of chasing Taehyung by saying the wrong thing, his mouth has always been an issue to him, so there's no way he is letting it destroy this little dream for him
So jungkook decided that keeping quiet and staring at the wall in front of him is better than opening his mouth or staring at what he really wants to stare at.
Taehyung had a plan of his own though.
"We should talk" came the dreaded statement, Jungkook wants to stand up and run, anything to avoid what's about to happen, but he also knows this needs to happen between them.
What if Taehyung wants to break their bond, his stupid mind suggested. That's almost physically impossible he tries to console himself.
"Yeah" he quietly response
"Kook" called the soft voice sounding a little closer to him. Taehyung has moved close to him,his body completely turned towards him.
Jungkook does the same cause that's what the omega wants. He let his eyes fully take in his mate, he looks just fine making him wants to sigh in relief.
Taehyung takes hold of his hand playing with it, Jungkook gently rubs his finger over his, which makes Taehyung smiles.
Jumgkook's half worry melts away with that smile and the scent that follows it, Taehyung is fine, Taehyung is telling him everything is fine and that was the cue to finally hug his mate.
He pulled him into his arms, pressing his head into his neck, his scent so heavenly Jungkook is about to cry
Taehyung pulled away first, hand gently caressing Jungkook's face, his beautiful smile still on his face.
"I was wrong" Jungkook paused tilting his head to ask what he is talking about, Taehyung's hand fell off his face, his smile replaced with his serious face. "I was in the wrong too"
Jungkook finally realized what he's talking about. "Tae-" he tried to stop the omega from even trying to blame himself cause that's just plain ridiculous but Taehyung wasn't having it
"Let me finish" Taehyung cuts him off, eyes going between his face and their locked hands. Jungkook nods for him to continue.
"I was wrong in making it all about me and what I want, you're my mate and you have just as much equal right to say what you want. Which is also important and should be respected, you're my alpha, the head of this home"
Jungkook knows the truth in this, most alphas don't even give their mates any right to decide in their relationship. It's in their typical society to treat the omegas as the submissive one without a voice.
Jungkook is glad about his father for one thing, how to treat his mate, he himself might have been violence but those memories of his father letting his stepmom decide what happens in the family sometimes played its way into his head.
Jungkook gave Taehyung just as much equal rights as him, they were equals and he is very happy about their relationship, Taehyung is his mate, not his slave.
"Baby you--"
"Koo please let me finish" Taehyung cut him short with a pout and jungkook is tempted to wipe it off with his mouth but not now.
Jungkook feels his entire body relax at the carefree and relaxed mood of his mate.
"Getting pregnant was both of our faults kook, we should have talked about this long ago but we avoided it till now" Jungkook nods eyes never leaving his mate's face.
Taehyung let out another sigh. "I respect what you want koo" Taehyung paused eyes watching him carefully, Jungkook feels naked, he wants to look away from the searching eyes but he couldn't, his entire mind dreading the 'but' that is coming.
"But" here we go. "I can't change my mind about what I want kook, I want a child" Taehyung eyes him curiously. "I want children I don't think I'll ever live happily if I don't "
And jungkook understands, he knows that Taehyung is an omega. Jungkook should have considered this before going all full attack on his mate for the pregnancy.
"Can I?" Jungkook asked
"Yeah yeah" Taehyung respond adjusting himself. Jungkook can see the nerve dancing in his eyes, Taehyung is scared of his response that much he can see. Jungkook tightens his hold on his hand a silent message that everything will be ok.
"I was wrong too" he started. "I was selfish, I failed to protect my family" Jungkook said quietly, he feels Taehyung's hand go rigid in his hold.
"F-family?" Taehyung asked unsurely
"Yes, baby, I failed to protect you and I failed to accept and protect our child" Taehyung looked up at him tears already falling down his soft beautiful cheeks.
"Kook---"
"Shhh, baby" Jungkook said softly letting go of his hand to wipe the omega's cheeks. "I felt an emptiness and pain when I heard we lost them" His words was making his mate cry harder, Jungkook cannot stop now he needs to say it. "The pain I felt made me realize deep down I wanted that child just as much as you baby, but my fear of failing as a father is a result of the reaction you got instead."
"Koo--" Taehyung manages to say between tears, Jungkook closes his eyes when he felt the sting in his eyes, he let out an awkward laugh clearing his throat. Taehyung let out a laugh that sounded like he was crying but he was laughing.
"What I'm trying to say is, I'm confident I won't do bad as a father because I have you to guide, scold and correct me."
"Kook" Taehyung whispers again.
"I want to have as many childre--" Taehyung cuts him off with a hug, his entire body falling on him making him lose a little balance, his body now fully pressed on the sofa.
Taehyung was crying hard, his body shakes from crying, Jungkook smiled through his tears, hands holding his mate tight. He kept whispering sweet words to his mate to calm him down.
*
Taehyung smiled as Jungkook keeps kissing his neck, hand holding his waist tightly, body pressed together as they cuddle with smiles on their faces.
Taehyung let out a contented sigh. He tries to close his eyes to catch some sleep Jungkook really exhausted him as usual.
They missed each other just too much, the reason why they rushed each other immediately they we're done talking.
One minute he was almost tearing off Jungkook's shirt the next minute his body was pressed against the white sheets, body pressed together as Jungkook slowly fucks. into him
Jungkook puts his hand on his stomach rubbing it slowly. "I'm sorry baby" the younger apologies again, he's been doing this non-stop.
Taehyung really wants to move on from this, he has mourned, cry and now it's time to move on, what has happened as happened, they were both at fault, they learnt their lesson.
Taehyung turns his body to face his mate.
"No more koo, it's in the past now, please stop bringing it up, let's move on from this please"
Taehyung said in a pleading tone, eyes fixed on the younger who was watching him with a sad smile.
"Ok" Jungkook replied kissing his mate's forehead, then his nose before slotting their lips together. "I love you" he whispers on the omega lips.
Taehyung smiled wide whispering "I love you" To an equal smiling true blood.
*
"I should have not trusted that coward," The head alpha said laughing.
'I warned you father" Jungkook said with an eye roll.
"Ok fine mr true blood I know it all, I'll make sure to wait like you suggested next time" the head alpha replied playfully
Jungkook mumbled a "whatever"
Taehyung turned to look at the Luna, they both had stupid smiles on watching the interaction between the father and son.
Jungkook really became warmer to his family. Not the come play with me anytime kinda warm, well things did change. His siblings visit their home sometimes so yes things were better.
It's been two years since he lost his first pregnancy, not that Taehyung still cries over it no, he feels sad sometimes but they did move on. They were happy, he's living his dream life with his lovely mate beside him.
"Taehyung have you thought about it yet?" The sound of his name drags him from his thoughts, his eyes immediately darts to who was talking, it landed on the head alpha and Taehyung already knows what the question means.
"Yeah I Uhm I think I'll serve madam Lee for at least a year"
"Or you could just open your massive line, you've got me and even your mate for that " Taehyung takes his eyes to said mate, he's met with a knowing smirk. Taehyung is a little taken aback. Why is the idiot smirking?
"Honey I stand with Tae on this one, he just graduated, he's gonna need all the experience to stand on his own," The Luna said with a proud smile.
"I've seen his designs, I don't think he needs anyone" The head alpha declared proudly.
The man hasn't changed at all, he always wants things done fast, fast.
"Anyways got the space for you like you wanted" Taehyung look up at the older confused. The head alpha seems to notice his confusion and spoke up again. "Jungkook told me"
Taehyung hung his mouth open when he realized what the older is talking about. "Huh?"
Taehyung let out dumbfounded, because did the head alpha just get him a space for his fashion house in the most beautiful strategical biggest space in Busan?
"You deserve it Tae," The Luna said laughing probably at his dumbfounded look.
"I- umm- I don't know what to say" Taehyung finally let out with a chuckle
The head alpha chuckled "Don't say anything Tae, I believe in you and I know you will make it to the top and become the best"
Taehyung the best? The top? He's just an omega, it's rare for omegas to hold that kind of position. Taehyung didn't even know he was crying until Jungkook rushed to his side.
"Hey, pub, hey it's ok" Taehyung dived into his mates arms, he couldn't stop the sob from leaving his lips, everything just came crashing down on him.
He really achieved his dreams, a few years ago he had doubts about even finishing high school.
*
"What the hell Jungkook" Taehyung whisper yell, he was careful not to wake his bundles of joy.
Said male responded with a chuckle, his length still deep buried inside of him.
"Do you think this is funny?" Taehyung asked hitting the alpha's head.
"Ouch, baby calm down" the younger said laughing angering his mate more.
"You really think this is funny, I could fucking get pregnant Kook"
"Well-" Jungkook said laughing earning another slap on the head.
"You got to be kidding me kook, Sumi is just two years old and we already have three kook" Jungkook just kept smiling.
Taehyung is tempted to smile with his mate, I mean this is the man who didn't want anything to do with kids, now he has three and still wants more.
Taehyung still remembers Jungkook's reaction when he first held their twin. It was magical is what Jungkook kept repeating and Taehyung definitely felt the same.
They both thought it will be hard taking care of twin, thank heavens for the people in their lives, especially his mum and the Luna.
Jungkook at first was scared for the first few days, then the twin started needing his body contact, it was hell when Jungkook travels. The younger is indeed a natural, his instinct as an alpha really helped
It's still very hard though, their kids basically turn restless whenever their father is away.
Now Sumi the last child has turn worst, she is the real definition of daddy's girl.
Jungkook named her after his mother, which Taehyung was in support of. Jungkook did tell him everything about his mum, although he did put the pieces together before then.
Sumi Jungkook's mum wasn't the head Alpha's true mate, she was the woman he fell in love with. The head alpha had rejected his true mate which is the now Luna to be with Jungkook's mum
They both knew the danger of two strong alpha mating but they we're just too in love to care. Then the pregnancy happened she knew she wouldn't survive but she decided to keep the pregnancy, no matter how much the head alpha tried to talk her out of it. She loved her child before she even bore him. Well, the rest is the history they lived through.
Back to present, his first two angels are boys, Jung-hun and Jihan, his sweet little babies are both 5 years old.
"Baby come on I told you I want a big family"
Taehyung glare at his smiling mate. "We have three"
"Like I said a big family"
"You're unbelievable kook"
"Yeah," Jungkook whispers on his skin. They were lying with their side, Taehyung being the little spoon as usual. Jungkook's dick was still deep buried inside him
"Why is it taking so long koo, Sumi-" Taehyung didn't even finish his statement before they hear their tiny baby's voice.
"Dada"
"Oh my goodness" Taehyung panics rushing to cover up their naked body. "please tell me you locked the door kook"
"I d-did," Jungkook said chuckling
"Papa" his baby's voice rings out again Taehyung can almost hear the frustration in her voice.
"Uhmm honey bear I'm coming ok, please baby hold on.
Usually, after their morning sex, which is kind of Jungkook's breakfast, they wash up open the door waiting for when their little baby wakes up which is kind of a usual thing to come and scent them before doing anything else.
"Dad" Hun called out this time
Fucking great! Taehyung groans buring his face more in the pillow
"Come on Sumi papa and daddy are still sleeping" Taehyung almost wants to run and hug his baby.
"Bu-" Taehyung heard his little girl try to argue clearly wants to tell her brother she heard papa's voice.
"Jihan is still sleeping, you know what that means right?
Taehyung feels the atmosphere change.
A sharp happy "yes" then fast retreating footsteps follows.
Taehyung can not even thank the goddess enough for giving him such loving and understanding children.
"Fucking get out of me kook, the kids need me"
"Just a moment babe, my knot--" Taehyung turned his head to see a smirking Jungkook.
"Why on earth is it taking so--" then realization dawns on him. Jungkook was still very much getting hard inside of him.
"Jeon Jungkook" Taehyung screams, the only thing he got was another chuckle from said male.
The end